it's different, not like normal.

do you know how tiring is it?

having to keep thinking of somebody, something, but not even be able to hold on to it.

i'm so experiencing this right now.

there's so much thing i would really like to get,

people that i really miss and so want to meet them up,

so many things i want to do,

but, there's so many restrictions.

money is the most important factor.

time is the second.

my misses are all in school, preparing for exams, projects and etc.

and hell yes, don't have much time for me.

even 5 mins, i'll be happy.

Gracie, Pei Jun, Jasmine, Shuxian, Hwee Khim, Ying Lin and others.

i so so so wanna meet them.

but i know, it won't be easy.

they have just started school, yet i'm only starting next week.

please please tell me when you all are free!

there's so much i want to buy too.

just give me a thousand, it will be enough.

i won't ask for more.

i need a job to fulfill my cravings, but yet i'm not allowed to work.

bag, shoes, top, bottom, dress, cosmetic, skincare.

all these stuff freaking need money.

even if i go out, i need money too.

hell it.

yes, more clubbing please.

before all will be too tired.

i need more happy and great time!

party party, drink drink, pictures pictures, fun fun.

i wanna travel overseas.

even to malaysia, i'll be happy.

feeling trap in Singapore.

it's so boring.

anybody?

i'm feeling so tired just thinking of all these stuff.

driving nuts.

:(

so much to say, yet so little time to be spent.

HELLO!

have been wanting to blog ever since wed.

but did not have the time to do so, or maybe it's mood.

anyway, i'm really happy on wed, before that, sad to extreme.

happy part is that, finally finally, i went to club with karen again.

it's like ever since one year ago.

yes, we did have hell lots of fun.

both of us got a little tipsy.

it's rather rare for me to get tipsy and can't stand or walk really straight.

but not drunk i remember every single moment.

not that i'm a good drinker but i just drank a little fast and mood is not really straight.

but i love it, hope this coming wed will just be as great.

more drink, louder music and better tracks!

oh ya! another happy matter is, i finally met my AIAI!

JASMINE CHOW!

you don't know how much i missed her.

yes, i don't miss poly life at all but i do miss her.

when i saw her, i feel that it's like years ever since i saw her.

just about half a year that i've not met her.

but it seem to be so much longer.

she's someone i can just talk frank with.

it just feels so nice to meet someone that you miss yet didn't have chance to date her out.

it's really rare to meet her on the street or something.

thanks Jasmine.

my holiday feels more complete now.

:)

it feels great to live such a live, in need of more.

when's the last time i really shopped and having bags of buys?

last year? or maybe even further back to 2 years ago.

gosh, i miss that feeling so much.

and today, finally, i did it again!

it felt so great and madly enjoyable.

of course, it's lesser comparing to last time.

but least, i'm getting back that heavenly feeling.

thanks to the girls, accompanying and shopping together with me.

a pity that flora gotta leave early, if not, there will bound to have more fun.

soon, another shopping trip please.

and yes, i owe felicia 55 bucks!

gosh, i'm in debts, can't shop much any sooner.

clear those debts and be free from them

and i'll save up for the next shopping trip.

really happy with my buys.

it's like what i've being wanting to get.

though i did not complete my list, impossible.

i need more money!

bought 2 tops, 1 biker's jacket, 1 bag and a ring.

left with bottom, dress, shoe and another bag.

the prices seem to be really quite worth it.

top is like 15 bucks each and the ring like only 4.95 bucks, from cotton on.

biker's jacket at 55 bucks.

bag is 29 bucks, originally 55 bucks.

it's not very cheap, but least, i don't feel so much of a heartache.

i feel happy.

wednesday i'm going to buy that pair of shoes, i really hope i do.

money please come to me, i'll be nice!

oh, and guess i won't be heading down to Bugis street to shop anymore.

maybe it's cheaper, but the clothes there, not my age type.

i'm old already, i can't wear those filled with weird prints.

was so disappointed with the clothing there.

just that pair of shoes and i'll be really happy. :(

[ PS : today the money spent is purely my own money, not my sisters. ]

i'm dead beat from all the shopping and walking today.

shall head to my oh-so-comfy bed now!

G'nights y'all!

just those mouth and not a word.

PHOTOS!

Ladies Night on 17o6o9

18o6o9

anyway! guess what!

seeee the next pictureeeeeeeee!

tell me what you saw! :D

spin it right, spin it crazy.

club for the last two nights.

wednesday was crazy with all the fun and perspiration.

Phuture air con broke down and leaking water.

and hell yes, it's like a sauna with hell lots of people.

crazy.

thursday was suppose to be nice.

but it's so empty, i'm not used to it.

i wonder why is there so much bollywood people.

they danced like having prata making session.

i'm not refering to all, but those who irritated me.

don't be offended.

but all in all, i love the 2 nights.

great company, great music, great workout.

yes, i go clubbing to sweat it out.

not fishing, just music and burn fats.

photos to be updated again.

'm feeling hell-oh sick.

drowsy.

G'nights

i don't, not a need.

congrats me, i'm sick again.

down with flu, phlegm stuff and cough.

feeling so uncomfortable.

please please, don't give me fever.

i wanna enjoy my holiday for now.

:(

put it up, take it down.

YES!

finally i've received the mail from Fujifilm!

that long waited mail for me to collect my camera!

i was like jumping and dashing to my house just to open the letter.

and that idiotic smile did not leave my face.

i'm just like that, happy and excited for silly stuff.

HAHAHA!

anyway, if you don't remember why i've gotten myself a camera,

no fear, just read the photo below.

hope it will help you refresh the memory abit!

:D

so once i read through the letter,

i take my ic and out i go to collect the camera.

my mother was like saying i crazy.

just reached home then going out again.

but i just can't wait man.

it's like i received the letter on a friday.

and the collection day is like monday to friday.

it's almost so impossible for me to wait to get it on my hands on monday.

so yea, rushed down to get it.

was like super excited luh.

waited for awhile in office.

and tadah!

my camera was on my hands!

hell-oh-so-lucky, i've got the camera in black!

yes, my favorite color.

and it's really so much nicer.

but even if i get silver, i wouldn't mind.

getting black is a bonus.

just bought the memory card today.

and i'm so ready to make full use of it.

it's like so cool.

the functions of the camera is really easy to use.

though it's a little bulky, but it's okay.

:D:D:D:D

everything, put a smile on that silly face.

OMG!

i'm so hooked up with Boys Before Flowers.

not that the actors are Oh-so-handsome, maybe there's 2 that are really cute.

but it's really damn hilarious.

by the way, if you don't know, Boys Before Flowers is the F4 show.

there's Japanese version, Taiwan version and anime.

but i personally feel that this Korea version is really damn funny.

i couldn't stop laughing just now.

while you're on holiday, maybe you should catch it..

but you should enjoy your holiday too!

:D

just then, feeling ever so lousy.

dearest o9o6o9,

today i feel really lousy.

i'm upset and it makes me feel really terrible of myself.

yes, maybe i'm not a good friend.

i'm really trying so hard and yet, i failed so terribly.

i'm not a good friend, i never know how.

people treat me just like a pillar.

ignoring the presence when not needed.

but yet lean on it when feeling tired.

i don't mind this fact, cause i know i'm in some help.

but it does hurt me sometimes when ignoring get overloaded.

it makes me feel that, my presences is just so insignificant.

my opinion, my views, everything about me, is just override.

i'm not important, it's okay.

i don't matter, it's okay.

i don't have a stand, never mind.

give me a breather, some respect.

maybe that's all i need.

when you all just decide, and making it final without even asking me.

that's what made me upset.

i made my views, all so not important.

other people views, hell yes and agreement.

how do you feel if you're in my shoes?

great? happy? joyful?

i doubt so.

sometimes i feel like a fool for being a friend.

in friends, you don't need consideration.

you don't have to consider whether to continue the friendship or what.

it seems so sick and make me feel really retarded.

once a friend, is always a friend, this is my statement.

even if now you hate me, dislike me, drifted away,

but one day if you need help, i'm oh-so-willing to help you out.

this is me.

i'm going really easy on everything.

i don't wanna voice some stuff out,

cause i don't want everything to turn so ugly or anything.

i just want it to drift away.

leave me out, i keep my silence.

making joke out of me, i'll laugh with you.

shout at me, i'm all ears to it.

ignoring me, i'll just forget it.

i'm easily affected,

that's all.

Signing off,

Jacqualine

that change, is just minor.

okay! so now is about my hair.

before i show you my permed hair, i shall show you a photo of my straight hair.

:)

actually now i start to miss my straight hair.

but i'm happy with my hair now too.

that day before i step into the salon, i'm like super nervous and scare.

nervous about the end result and scare that i might not look good.

but, everything was really quite fine.

:)

this is the 3 colorful stuff that are mainly used on my hair.

it did amazed me, it's like, how on earth can it make my hair till some curly stuff?

that 3 type of cones and rubber bands.

HAHA! i couldn't stop laughing at myself when i see this.

it's like lawyer's wig like.

it's not heavy or pain, but just funny.

so are you ready for the end result.

but the photo showed will be after about 3 wash.

i couldn't stand of not washing for a day.

so, yea.

i know i really look much older, but this photo my hair is still a little wet.

and i really don't know how to style it.

if you know me well, you will know i don't spend time styling my hair.

i'm not good at it.

guess from this 2 photos my hair looks better right? :D

yea, the curls are much softer now.

and i really like it. :)

money flies away, troubles set in.

oh my, i've seriously overspent this week!

guess i spent around 200 over nothing.

100 on hair, 50 plus on cab, 50 plus out with friends.

NOT PRODUCTIVE!

okay, i set my heart.

i shall not take cab anymore!

it's really expensive and i'll still be late.

maybe i should make a habit to prepare earlier and leave early.

oh, and guess what!

today, i worn heels out to the street.

and thanks to my stubbornness, i came home with my feet sore and full of blisters.

HAHA, I'M LIKE LAUGHING AT MYSELF NOW!

worst of all,

a blister burst, and it's at the sole of the feet.

i'm limping my way now.

sucks sucks!

and FINALLY!

i've permed my hair.

my mummy said it's ugly and don't suit me.

whereas my friends said it's not bad cept for ONE person.

i'm sad by the respond.

but, I'M STILL HAPPY WITH MY CHANGE! :D

photos will be up soon, i hope.

maybe monday? :D

G'nights.

limit hit, bam it goes.

I realized something about me.

yes, i really hate this.

i show my temper easily.

sorry those who suffered under my temper explosion.

really do hope that, injuries suffered is not deadly.

i'm really sorry, i hate myself for it.

it's part of me, i did try to change and chase it away.

but it just stay and remain.

i even feel like getting a tattoo for it just to remind myself.

guess one day, everybody will just leave me.

reason is simply my temper.

i really don't want it to happen.

yet i can't remove it from my blood.

i'm paranoid.

this is really bad.

let your hair down now, it's party time!

yes, LONG WAITED MOMENT!

it's holiday!

i've got so many stuff on my what-to-do-list!

but i know, it's really impossible for me to fulfill all.

one by one, i'll take my time.

but i've got 3 most important task.

paint my room, change my image and ENJOYMENT BABY!

:D

kbox and out with my PIEs tomorrow.

clubbing night on wed?

anymore?!

pathetic.

m

PEOPLE, DATE ME OUT!