if we have to pretend, i rather not.

met up with eldest sister the other day along with her precious.
went down to town for dinner @ The Pasta Shop, wheelock's place.
it's actually a new shop opened by Sakae.
there's one at Tiong Baru as well.

the food serve was not bad.
the price is pretty resonable and definately worth trying.
it's a pity that i didn't get to try their deserts.
but i'll go back again for their pasta and deserts. :)

Mischa is able to sit up on her own now.
she like to make funny expression
but yet i'm that lousy for not being able to capture it in time.
but somehow, she still resemble a boy.
but i bet, she gonna be really pretty when she grow older.

SHE'S NOT COCK EYES!

on the other hand, Ayden, is growing bigger each time i see him.
no, not fat, just like growing up real fast.
and he, resemble a girl.

how weird, a girl resemble a boy, a boy resemble a girl.
funny.

whatever, unfairness.
don't ask me anything about this.

my cough is still around, annoying stuff.
it's like i can't take it anymore.
i cough like some old lady.
hell out of it please.

i suddenly felt a gush of love for no reasons.
argh, where's love?
doubt there's any hur?
but i know there's love somewhere.
*cheeky smile*

that lecturer should just get lost, she's not needed.

i feel tired with certain people around.
they are like draining me down fast.

i need some people around to get me full bar.
but these people, they don't seem to be free for me at all.
it's like, am i pathetic or lousy?

sometimes i rather to be myself.
at least, i can seek for self-console.
it's much better this way for me.

peijun, GRACIE, shuxian, edmund, G and some other few,
where the hell are you all.
somehow, i need you all now...

i won't turn up for it.

yesterday was the end of my French Basic Conversation.
well, it was quite nice for the whole module.
but guess i didn't work hard enough.
my French seem to some noob talking.

work getting from bad to worst.
it's like yesterday i only work 2.5hours, but it seem to be like 5 hours instead.
how draggy, and i'm so not in mood to work.
hence being quite rude to those really asshole.
i hope they complain me and managers will ask me stop working anymore.
I REALLY DON'T WANNA WORK FOR SINGTEL ANYMORE!

now i've got no motivation to work, Singtel really sucks big time.
ESPECIALLY THAT BITCH!

shan't nag much more, feeling that i'm getting naggier each time.

PHOTO TIME!

Jasmine's belated birthday celebration.

the 5 girls in class

Birthday Girl
the way she eat the cake = she eating kueh. :S

tummy and the monster

19 November 2008

argh, my head hurt when i stand from sitting.
seriously it's like spinning and squeezing pain.
sucks..

can i have a wheelchair?
so i don't have to stand up.
you don't know how much it hurts.
:(

sometimes, i just don't wish to explain to much.
some don't bother, so what for i explain so much and end up no words is taken in?
know me well, and you will know why.
i thought everything was clear.
i'm wrong.

i'm sick and tired, yet i saw that sentence which bring me to feel that i'm just an extra.
do you even know how that feel?
it's horrible, it's hurting.
i'm quite looking forward to it, but just that sentence, it make me feel that i shouldn't turn up to spoil anything.
thanks for looking me at this way.

i thought you're someone i can talk and understand me.
you seemed to have changed just in that period of time.
i'm really looking forward in meeting you, i long for the meeting.
but now, i feel betray and feel that what i felt seem stupid.

i told you how i felt about how i felt, yet you don't understand and yet seem to blame.
you don't even reply somehow.
is it that redundant to tell you how i felt?
i thought i could tell you anything, but what you do is seem like you shove me away.
okay, maybe you are busy.
but maybe 5 mins is all i need, is it too much to ask for?

no matter how tired i am, how busy i am, i do put you first.
i'm not praising myself or what, but you know your placing.
what's mine, guess i'm just down those list now.
i don't feel like saying much anymore.
i don't want those silly tears.

thanks.

it have been awhile ever since mummy bought me mac breakfast.
though she bought the wrong one, i still love it.

okay!
it's time to show you something that is seriously not suppose to be shown!
get prepared to see.
prepare whatever you think is need for the aftermath result.
not for weak hearts!

warning is already given.
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TADAHHHH!!

HAHA SORRY FOR THE LAME-NESS!
can't blame a boredy right?

sister lai is mean.
she said i look like a pig. :S
must be the white mud nose mask.
kose white mask is loved!

sorry for my messy hair, and unglam-ness.
can't blame okay, i'm at home eh!

anyway, mischa and ayden is at my house again.
she is able to sit up by herself already.
oh sweet.
but she was like a monster today when she started to pull those baby gym toys.
it was like as if she gonna tear it down.
and poor him, is lying on the baby gym.

but it's really cute la.
i missing these 2 sweeties now.
they took my heart and mind away.
:(

don't know when will i see mischa again...

mischa and ayden are loved.

i miss that someone too.
curse that virus that causing someone to be unwell!

PS : i've added the comment thingy, you may comment if you want. :)

I HATE CHEEEENA!
THEY SHOULD JUST GO BACK HOME!

of all places, i don't know why singapore are populated by them.
oh ya, i just recalled,
-they can't go to western countries, cause their english sucks big time.
-even if they are fluent in english, the still have their digusting accent.
okay la, think i shouldn't be so bad.

let me praise them, and say them at the same time.
-they are good at maths, but they are too proud in it and disturbing those who are not that good.
-they have good skin, but their fashion is just so can't make it.
-they willing to learn english, but their accent are such a turn off.
-they can be helpful, but they are really rude most of the time.
-they work hard, yet they think they are the boss.
-they feel Singapore is a great place, but went something goes wrong, they criticize singapore and compare with their hometown. (please la, like that just fuck back la!)
-they have privillages, but actually they are outcasted, FOOLS!
-they are loud speaker, but please la, talk softly in public can?!
the list just go on..NON-STOP!

i really wish the government in Singapore will just ban them, or pass a strict test before allowing them to study or work here.
they are seriously disgracing us, the SINGAPOREANS!
caucasians or other tourist might mistake them as SINGAPOREANS, and causing shame to us with their impolite and selfish behaviour.

franking speaking, i can tell you, these CHEEENAS are much more KIASU then most Singaporean.
no deny that Singaporean might be kiasu at times, but CHEEENAS are kiasu all the times!
if there's a place for kiasu king or kiasu queen, THEY SURE OWN US!

hey, don't say i'm bad okay.
this is what i feel, and seriously i can't stand it anymore.
if it's possible, i'll kick all of them back to their homeland.
so what they are chinese and i'm a chinese?
so what if we are in the same race?

BUT PLEASE LA!
Singaporeans are so much more polite, helpful and well-behaved.
Cheeenas are just so, impolite, rude, selfish and unglam.
they just think that everywhere they go, they can do whatever they want.
PLEASE HOR, THIS IS NOT CHINA, YOU WANT TO CONTINUE YOUR THIS KIND OF BEHAVIOUR, PLEASE GO BACK TO CHINA.

i feel that, the government should just do something.
don't just approve their application cause they feel that Singapore need foreign talent.
they are not that very talented lo.
put them to strict test before approve their application.
this will save the face of Singapore and relieve the frustration in all of us.

i'm disgusted by cheeenas actions.

a meal to satisfy my hunger. :)

almost all gone down.

Thanks to the lady that i serve, she bought me this to thank me.
thanks.

i miss saturdays and sundays.

:(

sigh, i feel like dressing prettily and hit the malls.
shop for all those pretty stuff regardless of price.
held on to those handful of bags with the envy of other's eyes.
argh, can i just have more money in my bank, or GIVE ME MORE MONEY!
i'm like a pathetic ass slogging herself just for those pathetic bucks.

YES, I HATE SINGTEL!
BUT I'M WORKING FOR THEM NOW!
HOW CONTRADICTING CAN IT BE?!
JUST CAUSE OF THOSE PATHETIC BUCKS, I'M PUTTING, MY PRIDE ASIDE FOR A MONENT!
NO, NOT A MOMENT! BUT 2 MONTHS!
FUCK.

it's only 2 weeks, not even 2 weeks.
and i can't stand it anymore.
singtel creeps are just such a pain in the neck.
YES, TAKE IT AS I'M BIAS OR WHATSOEVER.
SINGTEL SUCKS!

THEY EVEN SORT OF PUTTING BAD WORDS ON STARHUB!
COME ON, DON'T BE LAME SHIT ALRIGHT?!
SO WHAT IF STARHUB CAN'T HAVE IPHONE THIS YEAR?
DOES IT MAKE YOU HAPPY OR TO SHOW OFF?
YOU'RE EVEN LOSING MONEY FOR INVESTING TOO MUCH.
YOU'RE DUMB, THEY'RE SMART, CAN'T?

i pity them, losers!
i wanna quit this job, but guess i'll be a really asshole.
how how how?
tell me!

sucks.

on the other note, i went for an x-ray yesterday(tuesday) when i'm at the polyclinice for consultation.
the doctor was worried that i've got lungs infection due to my prolong coughing.
but, i'm fine, no infection or or shadows.

guess i look quite sick at that moment.
but do i look like i'm going for some operation or giving birth?
i quite like that suit though.
it's comfy.

i'm still coughing hard, but least, i'm not puking anymore.
nobody gonna be godmom or fairy godmon.
HAHA!

anyway, i think eye liners do work some wonders!
guess i'm a little slow.
but let me show you PROVE!
wait, but my prove not that obvious!
sucks.

anyway, i'm craving for instant noodles, double cheese burger, auntie annie, ice cream, char siew and roasted pork rice, porridge, korea food, sushi, bbq food, steak, lamb chop, prata, mee goreng, fish & chips, fried rice, subway, yoshinoya, sweet and sour pork and lots of good food.
argh, i think i'm worst than those NS guys.
i seem to have more cravings compare to them.
sucks.
think if i go NS, i'll end up eating all the good food in those a day or two bookout.
anybody have these cravings to?
GIVE ME A MESSAGE!

but i'll only be free on sat and sun.
cause of that damn work.
talk about it, i'm super pissed!
off to sleep, i shall curse them!

i've just register myself for the nuffnang blood donation drive.
well, but guess i won't get to donate my blood in it.
cause i'm just a blogger that not popular or having lots of reader.
so well, shall see how.

anyway, lots have being happening.
i'm feeling sick.
it's like i'm being coughing hard.
argh, sick shit.

i'm craving for steak, lamp chop and bbq stuff.
i feel like having instant noodles with sausage and luncheon meat as well.
subway will also be great!
tell me i'm not greedy yea?
:D

love me a little.

i don't feel like blogging at all.