Is this what BEING LOVED feels like?

PLANS ARE SCREWED!

RIGHT EYES IS GOLDFISH!
SHOULDN'T HAVE RUB IT YESTERDAY NIGHT!

>:(

I'LL NEVER HATE YOU CAUSE I JUST LOVED YOU TOO MUCH.

YOU'RE THE PAST TENSE NOW THAT I'LL STILL THINK OF.

I THOUGHT YOU'RE THE ONE, YET YOU'RE JUST THE MISTAKEN ONE.

I'LL NEVER RUN BACK TO YOU ANYMORE, TOO TIRED.

RELEASING YOU IS THE ONLY THING I CAN DO FOR YOU.

GOODBYE ACBL, YOU WON'T BE FORGOTTEN.

I LOVE YOU.

Be gone.



So what if it's hurting me?
So what if I'm crying over it?
So what if I'm getting insomnia?
So what if I'm drifting to the thoughts of it?

You're gone, and left me here alone.
Alone in my bed of tears.
Alone in the misses that accumulate.
Alone in the misery that I can't express.

I constantly reminding myself that I'm fine.
Deceiving myself that everything is good without you.
Yet, you're images just keep flashing.
Every moment of you, every touch.

You threw me away, just so easily.
I wish I could do the same, but I'm sorry.
I know one day I'l just get over you.
But I just couldn't stand myself being in this state.

I can't take it further, I'm going crazy.
I know what I should and what I shouldn't.
But I'm unconsciously making everything reverse.
Doing all the wrongs and not to.

I blame myself for this state.
I blame myself for loving you.
I blame myself for giving you a place.
I blame myself cause I'm the only one to blame.

Please get out of my head soon.
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Goodbye 2010.

2010 wasn't much of a good year for me.

screwed up my life for the second major time.

changed into someone i never expect that i'll be.

spent all of my pay, yes, no savings.

gotten myself a boyfriend, and yes i beginning to really love him.

but hell knows what is he really feeling.

i know, i shouldn't probably think too much and just enjoy every moment.

yet, there's just too much thoughts bothering me.

i'm trying hard to pry open my brains and let him knows what i'm thinking.

but it's really tough, i'm not those kind who will speak my mind instantly.

there's so much too say yet i'm always speechless when i have the chance.

blame it on me.

seriously, i just wish that things between me and him will work out.

else, doubt i'll ever get myself into this kind of game anywhere soon.

sometimes, i really just hope he will take the initiative to meet me up or contact me.

sometimes, i really want him to give me a little surprise or anything sweet.

i know, he's not those kind of person.

and i should not have any expectation to prevent disappointment.

but i just can't help it, i'm just a girl.

if i were ever a boy, i'll the proper way.

baby, please treat me right.

i know i'm not the perfect girlfriend, but i'm trying hard.

don't expect me to keep giving and not receiving anything.

it's way too tiring.

i love you.