just one moment like the past..

HELLO!
how's Lunar New Year for you?
Great?

well, for me, angbao is pathetic, skip it.
but seem like i'm having some luck in gambling.
by just playing cards, i've been winning about 50 plus?
alright, not alot but least, it adds to my income.
i just love playing cards during this festive.

went to relative's place.
it's a tradition type of things that can't be skipped.
yes, i hate it.
it's like whatever for?

it's like just to show face.
but whatever, at lease i get to spend some times with my family and babies.
it's well spent at least.

anyway i realised i got a super duper cute cousin.
and he's seriously handsome.
i crave for him, but he just a tad too young.
a gap of 16 years?
his name is JACKSON!

yes, shout cute, you have to admit.
he's damn shy in the beginning.
so i tried my luck and "seduce" him.
and of course, i won!

it's just some simple tricks and already have him keep looking for me.
heard from my mother that he keep looking for me when i not around.
isn't he sweet?



awww.. while typing this.
i miss Jackson, his smile just melt me down.

anyway, on the 2nd day of new year,
my both sister came back.
yea, they are married, so i couldn't see them everyday.
i do miss them.
it's like though years have past, but i still can't get used to it without them everyday.

but guess, i miss their cutie pies more.
:D

Eldest sis with Ayden.

and guess what, Ayden and Mischa worn couple wear that day.
both are in jump suit, it's like funny.
and yes, they were like perspiring throughout the day.
poor babies, they can't do anything.

i quite like this shot. :D

Mischa took my eldest bro-in-law sunglasses and started playing with it.
and so, we it on her.
she likes it and started posing with it.

after all the visiting, it's dinner and my favourite, GAMBLING TIME!
played and gamble and won myself around 50 bucks.
but too bad it ended early, cause mahjong session is up next.
and i sucks in it.
so off to get my beauty sleep!

oh ya!
somehow, maybe it's just a stage for the babies.
that Mischa and Ayden just like to stick out their tongues.
i got my evidence with me.

Ayden the Yoga Master!

Mischa the Laundry

At the 4th day of new year, i've got rashes appearing all over me.
i've got freak out by it since it's my first time getting it.
so it's was like, disgusting!

went to the doctor and he said i maybe allergic to the flu medicine i taken the night before.
yes, it's not my medicine, it's my sister.
having really bad flu and block nose that night and pop it in.
and TADAH! rashes!

NEVER TAKE MEDICINE THAT DON'T BELONGS TO YOU!

another 2 months more to my birthday!
am quite excited about though it still have quite a long way to go.
my birthday is never a happening stuff, plain, boring and lousy.
how sad right, fuck.

i've been having terrible birthday celebration ever since i step into secondary.
i seriously wish that this year will be a great one.
but, well, forget it.
pin no hopes.

BUT BUT BUT!
call me kiasu, i've already gotten my 1st birthday present for myself!
yes, i do get myself presents every year.
cause, i guess, it's just a way to spoil myself.

last year presents were spa and tongue piercing.
and this year is...............

yes, from Swarovski.
can you see what it is?
Clearer? Blame it on the plastic cover.
Saw?
Better?
It's a Swarovski Little Snow Flake.

well, it's not a expensive stuff.
but it do have some meaning behind this little thing.
nothing special, but have you ever really seen a snow flake before?
maybe you did, but definitely not me.

i always see in those cartoons, pictures, etc.
and the image of a perfect snow flake begin to surface.
yes, it's a Crystal Snow Flake.
one that really shine and sparkle under the rays of the sun without melting.

so, when i passby Swarovski during Christmas.
this Little Snow Flake caught my attention and i was stuck to it.
i was a little shock that the naive me thought there's really Snow Flake in that cabinet.

but it wasn't, so i've been think about this Little Snow Flake after i left.
it's the perfect snow flake that i've always being thinking of.
and i know, i have to get it.

so TADAH!
i bought it for myself as a birthday present.
simple yet meaningful somehow.
thanks.

G'nights.

i dreamt of negative, yet you're the negative.

tell me what to do, i'm not perfect.
i don't meet people from the net.
not that i'm anti-social or anything.
it's just that the aftermath do scare me.

i've been through those avoid and drift after meeting up.
so what we were close before we meet up.
but somehow, everything do change after that.
yes, you may say that i'm over-sensitive.
but, it's the fact and i've been through it.

i don't have a figure, i'm fat.
i'm not attractive, i'm ugly.
i'm different in reality, how much can i show in typing?
everybody knows this, it's the fact for who i am.

i don't understand why that a plan to meet up can just be so stressful to me.
i can't take the stress level, it sadden me.
i don't want any history to repeat.
it's the worst feeling ever, you don't know.

yes, all friends start from strangers.
but net friends are different.
in the sense that, we knew each other.
virtual yet not reality.
it's totally different matters.

i do treasure all my net friends.
as much as i wish we could remain this way, somehow, there will be request to meet up.
i'm lost and it seems like, a stressful and unpleasent stuff.

i just wish to shut off myself.

it's occupied. not with present, but the past.


i've done my fake nails for the Chinese new year!
okay la, not perfectly beautiful.
but at least, i'm happy with it.
somehow i'm a little scare to put it on.
guess it will be super inconvenient if i were to shit.
HAHAHA!




excuse those black spot in the middle.
they are just black tac that i temporary used to stick them to my nails.

anyway, i really love my new phone C905.
i mean, the pictures taken with it, is really pretty and sharp.
functions are not bad, what i need is available.
i'm not regretting it.

but i still miss my old phone somehow.
maybe due to that reason.

ayden is growing really fast.
heavier, naughtier and cuter each day.
the always have those super innocent looks that,
awwww, so cute luh!

see, i got proof to prove!
you just have to agree with me!
no deny or objections!

and mischa, on the other hand, is getting a little more grumpy.
and she slimming down.
i envy her okay!

she's super active now.
climbing and crawling everywhere!
or am i getting old that i feel tired easily?

anyway, till now, my eyes are still quit swollen and itchy at times.
might be going down to see a specialist if the problem still persist.
it's really a pain the neck.

AND!!!
Happy Chinese New Year!
get more ang baos, i don't mind if you wanna share it with me.
:D

any gambling sessions?
HAHA!
=x

dreams that includes, nightmare.

do you just know how irritating it is?!
i got out of my bed at 8, went to bath.
in the meantime, i've being rubbing my eyes.

it's normal for me to rub my eyes when i wake up.
bad habit, i know.

when i'm going through my daily routine,
i pissed by what i saw, my left eye is like super red.
not the veins that became bloodshot red, but the whole of the white part became red.
and it keep tearing and really itchy.

right side, normal

left side, after eye drop.
swollen with a tad of redness.

tell me, it's irritating.
i'm up and preparing for school.
but i can't go school cause of this.
it itch like madness and super watery.
dumb.

doctor said it's my fringe is too long.
hence, causing this infection and may as due to my daily wear of contact lens.
no contact lens for me this couple of days,
and a need for haircut.

tell me this sucks.
i just wanna go school and do my overdued stuff right.
i wished i can just dig my eyes out and disinfect it.
i'm pissed, super.

still as much, or is it more?

i'm happy, yes, satisfying happiness.

REASON(S) :

- i spent quality time with my family
- met up with Shuxian
- bought my new phone, C905.
- changed my mobile number.
- went facial.

okay la, simple reasons but yet, i'm happy enough.

next my targets will be :

- meet GRACIE LIM MEI HUAN!
- meet HUANG PEI JUN!
- brazilian waxing ( YES PLEASE!)
- manicure and pedicure
- bake something
- cooking a delicious meal
- ride a bicycle along ECPark
- jogging at the space near Potong Pasir
- hanging out with some old pals

and alot more la.
it's just one long long list that's will take me the whole night to type.
and will be a bore for you to read.
so might as well, spare it.
:S

it's monday now, which means, a new week!
sucks, the travelling time to school!
headache man, how i wish there's someone or me, personally, can drive to school.

i promise to turn up for school everyday till end of this semester.
i'll do my work and finish up everything that is undone.
i'll be a good girl, really.

HAHAHAH!
anyway, now i don't mind being a full time nanny.
i suddenly found my passion on taking care of babies.
anyone wanna hire me?
i can take care of 2 babies at one time.
:)

but, they might become liks siao zhabor like me.
this is what happening to Mischa and Ayden.
my 2 sweety pies.

okay, time to fall into my bed.
which i'm already am.

G'nights.

it left a shadow in me that i couldn't possibly remove.


i'm sick again, bad cramps and aches.
fever, flu, sore throat, cough and eye irritation.
they are all back again, YES AGAIN!
i'm irritated and it's like wtf.
i can't take it, i just wish that i'll be dead soon.

anyway, went to bugis street for my long waited shopping trip.
madness, not alot of stuff bought, but is the amount and time used.
within a short 1 hour, i bought 2 dresses, 4 tops and 1 short.

okay la, i know there's people can buy more than me.
but, it's like, i haven't been shopping for a long long while.
it's really satisfying and i felt better.

total damage is only about 120.
call it cheap, isn't it?
moreover, it's not me the one paying.
double duper yea-ness!

but one disappointment is that,
bugis junction did not have anything that i fancy.
but oh well, i'm still satisfied.
guess i need one more pair of sandels-kind-of-shoe and a bag to complete the list.

anyway, the starhub out amk hub is really ridiculous.
i wanted to buy c905 from Starhub but they do not have stock.
so when i tried my luck by asking this shop stuff.

he asked whether i want contract or not?
when i tell him yes, he said he don't have any c905.
then i asked, then if i don't want contract will have?
then he said yes.

wtf wtf wtf, does it make any difference?
are you trying to earn commission or what?
the god damn phone is still starhub phone right?!

i'm super pissed upon hearing that and i just wtf and left the shop.
i was cursing and swearing that guy, seriously.
just see how pissed i am.

well, guess my that 100 bucks voucher can't be used.
it's damn wasted, i'm pissed.

when i thought i did, my heart dropped dead.

i just realised i haven't been posting images.
all words, how boring.
but what to do, i'm sick and a school girl.
sucks.

i promised to make a better post soon.
i've got tonnes of images.
argh, soon soon soon!

anyway, ask me to die.
i've not studied for my DEC test tomorrow!
argh, i better scoop my butt and poke my eyes.
i'm so distracted by this damn laptop doing nonsensical stuff.

photoshoot at the Botanic Garden.
am i looking forword to it?
half-half, it's in the damn morning.
not very early, but it's at 9am.
do you know how much i hate to wake up in the morning?!
sucks.

i'm putting a stop here now.
shall study a little and sleep!
i'm tired.

or maybe i should study tomorrow, no is later in the day!
HAHA!




G'nights y'all!

i'm in school now, finally.
my eye itch like frying peanuts and yet i forgot to bring my drop.
sucks, gotta stop rubbing my eyes before it pop out.

starhub, please quickly bring in C905 in black.

DEC retest tomorrow, i'm not prepare.
let me die please.

diarrhoea falls on me.
damn it, i hate it!
i wanna go school la!
BITCH!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER!
you know, I LOVE YOU!

dammit, there i go, waster my sunday morning.
i should be sleeping, yet i can't fall back to sleep.
school tomorrow, like finally hur?

i've got so much photos with me.
yet, i'm a lazy bum.
lazy bum that's lazy to do lots of stuff.

cheers people.
G'day!

it's haunting me day and night.

"eh, you okie?"
this was part of the dream, i miss it.

somehow, i didn't get to enjoy yesterday night.
when it's the part, we gotta go.
how mood spoiling.
or maybe is it my health killing me?

waste of my money.
i'm broke, money please.

somehow, i really do.

知道 by 郭靜

她讓你憔悴許多　她讓你不知所措
她一舉一動你不停地對我說
我微笑傾聽你說　我卻越聽越心痛
怎麼你說的不是我她比我多了甚麼　讓你願意　耐心等候我想知道她讓你癡心　是甚麼
我想知道她讓你瘋狂　為甚麼
我知道做的和她沒有不同
但是我　卻不在你心中　逗留我想知道她哪裡比我好更多
在你心中她和我有甚麼不同
我知道我比她付出的還多
可是我　總換不了你的　心動你讓我憔悴很多　你讓我不知所措
你一舉一動我的心被牽著走
她不經意地走過　你就把我給冷落
嫉妒把我給吞沒她比我多了甚麼　讓你願意　耐心等候我想知道她讓你癡心　是甚麼
我想知道她讓你瘋狂　為甚麼
我知道做的和她沒有不同
但是我　卻不在你心中　逗留我想知道她哪裡比我好更多
在你心中她和我有甚麼不同
我知道我比她付出的還多
可是我　總換不了你的　心動我知道了她哪裡比我好更多
在你心中我永遠不可能會讓你心動
我知道我比她付出的還多
可是我　在你心中沒有她多

i'm not chinese song listener, just happened to came by tis song

this song, somehow describe everything.

it's a good song filled with meanings.

argh, i'm feeling really weak now.

have been puking and puking.

i even had diarrohea.

sucks.

doubt i can turn up for lessons again.

what's happening to my body!?

dear body, please recover real soon.
you're killing me.

so practically, ever since don't know when,
i'm like sick till now, it have being the longest period.
i've never been like that before.

coughing, sneezing, restless, dazed.
and my school reopen present is, 2 days mc.
thanks ar, just as much as i wanted to go school.
this sucks.

going to the doctor again, my throat hurts, nose is block.
fuck.

202 : when i feel miserable, yet nothing can be done.


argh, i've got so much photos to upload.
but i'm a tad too lazy.
you know me, i not selective on what photos to post.
i'll just post like nobody business and everybody seem nice to me.
will post it any another day.

anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR lovelies!
i love all of you my lovelies.
okay, maybe, i don't contact you all frequent or whatsoever.
but i still think of you all.
this 2009, i'll try my best to date you all out.
i promise.

my eve was a simple yet quite enjoyable one.
didn't get enough sleep and feeling tired all day.
morning 8 am, my sister woke me up just to go breakfast with her and mum.
after breakfast, home to sleep for another couple of hours.

woke up and 2 and prepared and went over to my sister place.
anyway, while my sister was resting, i look after mischa.
she was really naughty and whinnying.
she was tired yet don't want to go to sleep.
i carried her and she puked on me.
:S

after dinner, went over to gardens using a ultra long route.
from cck, trained to jurong east, then bus-ed to tpy, and finally bus-ed to gardens.
you may wonder why i don't train straight to amk and change bused.
cause if i do that i'll be super early, so am i smart enough?

met darling finally at around 11.
it wasn't a good beginning.
but luckily i managed to make her better before midnight.
though she was with me before and after countdown, but she's not exactly there when it's countdown.
in another words, i'm alone in liquid kitchen for countdown.
hundreds and thousands of thoughts ran into my mind.

somehow, i'm still appreciate peijun around.
aftermath prata and went over to her house to chat and do mask.
stayed till 6+ am, and sneak out of her house and home-ed.
hit the bed once i'm home.

haha, i love you darling, you're one great friend!
seriously.

sorry for this wordy post. i'll edit and fill in with pictures!
i promise!
:D