Never in Family.

as i have expected, silence is just a pause.

everything turned heated up once again.

and this time, no tolerance is available.

in the middle of the night.

sometimes, i really hate my dad.

i know i shouldn't be, but i can't help it.

he does not even work to support the family,

all he do is smoke and sleep.

when he's not happy with who-knows-what,

he will just roar into anger with vulgarities.

and give those killer look till every heat in him is gone.

he got a serious emotional un-stability.

my mother, no i don't hate her.

sometimes i'm just too pissed off to do anything.

but if things happen, i'll sure jump to her to keep her safe.

she need more protection than i do.

yes, she's a drama-mama at times.

trying to gain as much attention as she wants.

and it's really irritating and annoying.

but i still love her.

sometimes i really wish my mother would have follow the decision and abort me.

least, this will ease the financial burden by some extent and less suffering.

i don't feel happy in this family at all.

it's like a wrong choice.

i seriously think that,

my family will do real good without the presence of my dad.

he should return to the cell, and never release.

he should be kept behind those bars.

and yet,

i'm helpless, i can't do anything.

fuck and die.

B.O.R.E.D

if you can read my mind now,

all you can read is BORED.

somehow, i've really have nothing to do or maybe no mood to do anything.

this week is gonna be a really hectic week for me.

2 birthdays to handle and it's chinese new year.

birthdays are good but not chinese new year.

seriously vexed over my financial status.

it's not going up but straight down.

worst of all, i have not find a job yet.

and the celebrations means more spending.

my birthday trip is another issue.

i can't seem to have that enough money to travel.

but i really wanna go somewhere alone.

please rain me some money.

let everything be good.

boredom, get lost.