the tough begins within a little blink.
it's awaiting, yet i'm not pending.
but there's the need for it, i have to do.
i need the prize, lose those pains.


it will be worth.
training today, start on monday.
ends at the end of the year.
it won't be long.

a meal to console the one who cried to her sleep last night.
it's not perfect, but it warmed her heart for a moment.
she, herself, treat herself best.


but, my stomach is not helping.
once again, i puked out everything after 20 mins.
is it my mind or stomach not accepting those food?
i can't comprehend.

and i won't crave or be hungry for the whole day.
maybe i should just stop eating and give up.
it's really tiring to eat and puke aftermath.

somehow, if you know, i feel alone.
who's real and fake?
i don't know.

i know, i have not much left.
nobody who is there to go crazy buffet with me,
nobody to go photography shoot with me,
nobody to go out in the night with me till dawn,
nobody to crap with me when i just needed it most,
nobody that are really them.

yes, i know there's one who can fulfill some of my wants.
but, maybe i'm greed.

i see other people's blog,
are photos with a group of crazy pals having lots of fun doing silly stuff.
i envy, i'm jealous.
but what can i do?

my friend circle just don't do that.
what can i ask for?
this is when, i realised i'm losing myself just because of my surrounding.

i'm not happy.

am i sick or depression or what?

i don't have the mood to eat much these couple of days.
after i eat, i'll feel nauseous and really unwell.
after a couple of mouth, i'll feel bloated.

its like, so not me.

i feel a little weak.
coughing, sneezing, tummy weirdness, lethargic.
yet i don't have a fever.

dear health,
if you want me to be sick, please let me fall real ill.
not like this, halfway done, it's irritating.
it's either i be sick, or not sick.
get it?

argh, it's coming again.
off to sleep.

G'nights

not to describe.

tell me i sucks.
i don't feel like blogging much.
there seem to have too much negative compared to postive.
i don't really like it.

do click on those ads.

off i go, won't be blogging these few days.

!#$%^&*()
AM I UNLUCKY OR UNLUCKY!
I'VE MET ANOTHER FLASHER!
YES! ANOTHER ONE!

but this time round i'm smart enough to detour and not become another pathetic pray.
he is such a loser.

this is when i realised, i'm not a good friend.
i'm sorry

after come unknowing reflection.
tell me, am i a good person or a bad person?
guess, i'm ain't great afterall.
worst than i thought i am.


i'm exhausted extremely.
like a vehicle which have drive through a thousand miles without stopping.
i need rest, plenty off it.

i don't want to be a friend like me.
i feel like a fool.
i've thought too much and ended up waiting in vain.

tell me not to cry, cause it doesn't worth.
blame it all me, that's what was thought, for being a fool.

i swear, i'll never be like this again.
i've spending my life waiting for almost everything.
i'm worn and torn.

i'm not in mood.
maybe is just those cold breeze that make it worst.
i'm sick.

what's my value in those eyes?
not 10 cent or even 5 cent.
that's what i am.
enough

what a realisation today.
there's actually several kinds of people in my school.

1. dont' bother dressing just wear normal home clothes ( smart asses! they don't need appearance)
2. tried very hard to make the efford to dress, yet, still look like wearing home clothes. ( it's either they REALLY trying to be good looking when they are already smart enough, or they just can't make it in dressing sense. )
3. dress casually, those kind of "girl-next-door" look ( they are simple people who feel good about what they are wearing. it's just a day in school, or maybe heading out. it's perfectly suited for poly/uni life)
4. dress till as if they are going for some fasion show or treating school as a shopping mall. (well normally this group of people really bother the way how people look at them, appearance is important! well good efford for that, but, maybe, it's just the wrong location for that. :S)

well, these are the 4 main ones that i can remember for now.
i did have alot when i'm walking from the bus stop to my block.
but, i just forget things easily.
ain't my fault, blame it on my pea brain.

well, if you were to ask me which section do i belong to, i'd say that most of the times is 3.
UNLESS, i wake up super early or have an super important date after that.
if not, it's impossible for me to be like 4.
and most of all, i'm way too lazy to dress up JUST TO GO SCHOOL.

met up with Darling, PeiJun, and Hwee Khim today.
it's just like those times in secondary school.
hanging out together after school and having small chats.
but this time round, we are planning our future.
like what we are going to do next meet up, what are we going to do after poly grad, etc.
it's really nice and simple.

darling and i MAYBE heading overseas to study uni if we could not get into any local uni.
we will try to go to the same course for local uni.
HOPEFULLY WE CAN BE CLASSMATES AGAIN!
:D

Who says baby don't enjoy TV?

The sexy hottie.

pooled and lost to that Eric, tyco king.
7-5.

punishment : treat him supper.

ordered a bottle of beer and drink.
that idiot wanted another bottle after finishing.
so, another bottle was serve.
we ended up playing "guess punch"
at first, i lost badly and finished my glass of beer.
but guess, that glass of beer bring me luck.
end up, eric keep losing.

opened the chivas after finishing the beer.
and he drank glass of it, i drank only a couple of slips.
poor eric, how unlucky.
someone is almost drunk!
HAHAHA!

ERIC SUCKS!
still wanna challenge me, we shall see!

argh, laugh at me.
i'm super reluctant to go school tomorrow!
it's a brand new semster.
yet, i'm looking towards it, instead, i dread for it.
sucks.

can i just quit school or request for a longer holiday?
i've so much things that i've not done.
prawning, photo shooting, developing photos, shopping, nua-ing, hitting kbox, bling my laptop, do my nails, bake my cookies, etc etc ETC!
argh, can't my holiday be longer a little more?
NO CHOICE!

anyway, i'm intending to find a part time job!
i don't need a job that is too slack that i'll end up wasting my time doing nothing.
i don't need a job that need to much brain cell.
i don't need a job that will drain me out.
maybe, i just need a job that will give me good money and spend my time wisely.
any recommandation?

i don't mind baby-sitting.
i don't mind being a tuition teacher for p1-p2, sec1-sec2.(maths only!)
i don't mind being a mystery shopper.
i don't mind doing surveys.( me doing it, not asking people to do it)
i don't mind baking or cooking.(give me the recipe, i'll do it half well!)

HAHA, my requirement is not that high right?
just simple requirement to satisfied.
best is that the job will pay me 7-10 per hours.
more money i also don't mind.
:D

i'm so gonna pack my room in a moment later.
its in a MESSY SHIT condition.
hopefully it will maintain well.
if not, i'll be wasting my effort somehow.

OH YA!
my crystals are coming real soon!
i can't wait for it and do something out of it.
i pray that it will come next week!
maybe, wednesday?

argh, i pending lots of mails.
when will they be in my mail box?
make it real soon!
i just can't wait!

i shall meet up with some friends next week.
HOPEFULLY!
:D

PS : can anybody share with me some hair growing secret?! my hair is growing ever so slowly!

HAHAHA! I'VE FINALLY BOUGHT MY CLINIQUE 3-STEP SET!
I'M A HAPPY GIRL!

and with the purchase of more than 150 spent, i've gotten myselt this free goodie bag with their new product and make up.
how wonderful and nice can it be?
the goodie bag itself, i guess, cost around 70 bucks?
okay la, not alot BUT BETTER THAN NOTHING RIGHT?!
i've even gotten myself their sample of 2 different tone of Superfit Liquid Foundation.
i'm a cheapo, happy cheapo!

My 1st 3-step set : Type 2

Superfit Liquid Foundation Sample.

The Free Goodie Bag worth about 70 bucks.

For the goodie bag, it consist of 6 items.

• Rinse-Off Foaming Cleanser ( 1FL.OZ. /30ml )
• All About Eyes Rich ( NET WT. .21 OZ. / 7ml )
• Moisture Surge Extended Thirst Relief ( NET WT. .5 OZ. / 15ml )
• Colour Surge Eye Shawdow Duo ( NET WT. .07 OZ. / 2 g )
• High Impact Mascara ( NET WT. .14 OZ. / 4g )
• Eyelash Curler
• Cosmetic Bag

I must say that the Consultant is really nice, friendly and patient.
If any of you wanna purchase Clinique stuff, can try Isetan Lido.
The goodie bag is while stock last i guess.
So make it quick!

Sweet isn't it?
:D

BABIES TIME!

Firstly, Mischa is sleeping soundly in her style. Then she woke up giving those "what happen" look.
Act blur only.
Thirdly, she give an "opps, kana exposed" innocent face.
In the end, she will just bo chap everything and suck her fingers lickin good.
Ayden is a nun? O.o?
That's his favourite talking partner.

DUE TO EXTREME BOREDNESS AND SHYNESS,

Exit my life.

G'nights!

08 October 2008

went out with mum my sisters and their babies!
high tea at lao beijing @ PS.
utterly disappointing, wasn't up to my expectation at all.
it was much better last time over at Novena.

while we having high tea, the babies were having their.... HIGH MILK!

call me kiasu or whatever, but i'm fascinated with this table.
i want some goldfish too!

Even before everything was served..

Baby mischa were being "served" on the table.
:S

Some of the food that almost killed us. SUCKS! But poor mischa, could only have....
Guess, she would rather have her fingers.
:B
Ayden's tummy after his HIGH MILK.
O.O!
about 4 hours past, it's still..
but of course, he had another bottle of milk.

shopped around PS, yet i bought nothing.
eldest sister felt as disappointed as i do.
we expected great shopping spree.
but well, sucks.

anyway, i bought fake nails.
gonna bling it when i gotten my crystals and put it onto my nails.
but hopefully, it won't damage my nails.
before i curse and swear!

Eldest sister with Baby Mischa.

Second Sister with Baby Ayden.

While reading the magazine...

RING RING! I'VE GOT A MAIL!

These fake lashes are super cheap!
Gonna stock up more.

i'm expecting more to come, but doubt it will be soon. :(

Guess, make up do make a difference.
Does it look better or plastic?
:S

alright, shall post what i've brought in japan as requested.
nothing much actually, some items won't be posted though.
:D

most of them are not for me, i don't snack.

HAHA! i needed them.
my boobs are like SEPERATED, UGLY!
legs are FAT, SUCKS!!

i spent about 300 on all these. i've got a shock.
1st time i ever spent so much on cosmetic.
THESE ARE DAMN CHEAP!
less than 26 per set!


The heels cause only about 7-13 per pair. CHEAP!

i wouldn't mind going Japan.
but make sure i'm loaded first.
the stuff there are really much more costly.
ESPECIALLY TRANSPORT!

LOLOL!
I'VE SPENT ALL MY PAY!
THAT'S FAST.
WITHIN A WEEK, I'VE SPENT 1300.
I'M A SHOPPER INSANE!

JUST BUY!
WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR!

i need more money!
:(