Love me all over again.

sorry for my freaky actions,

insecurities just over take me.

i'm just too scare and afraid.

nightmares please don't get too real.

i've decided to let you take the lead.

i won't be the first to do everything anymore.

it takes both to make it work.

worn off is how i'm feeling.

baby, please notice and take some actions.

don't make me wait too long.

i need you to be here and care for me.

cause i just love you.

i don't wanna give up so easily,

cause it took me great courage to step into a relationship again.

don't let me get hurt, don't leave.

i do all these cause i just care too much about you.

i'm obsessed with you.

i don't know what's so good about you,

but i know i just want you to be with me.

please, don't lie to me.

it's because i love you.

Nightmare.



staring into the empty darkness,
trying to catch a glimsp of sleep.
yet falling into insomnia,
with hundreds of thoughts running through my mind.

family, friends, boyfriend or even strangers,
just seem to run in the speed of light through the thoughts.
my heart is screaming in pain,
yet nobody seem to knows.

once fallen into sleep,
i'm awoken with streams of nightmares.
nightmares of everything out to get me down.
woken up with fear and dampen emotions.

i'm scare, so scare that everything will be real.
i think it through days,
causing my smile to crease.
alone is all i can feel.

i wish there's someone to hug me tight,
ensuring me things will be alright.
yet, emptiness and loneliness is all i felt.
nobody is here.

no, don't lie that you're gonna be here with me.
you know you're not gonna be here.
this world is selfish, even those who is closest to my heart.
i'm alone in tears, with mind unclear.

save me, i need somebody to take me away.
i'm really scare.
probably suicide is the best solution to my agony.
i'll make it to reality.

give me some time.

20.10.2010

please stay with me.

stop making me as if i'm hanging in the air.

i need your love, i need your actions.

baby, show it to me will you?

show me more of your concern and love.

tell me your misses and make me feel the existences.

touch me with your small actions in heart.

please baby, i need all of them.

don't lie to me, i can't take it.

don't fool me, i'll breakdown.

don't break my heart, it will be over.

don't stay, if there's no longer love.

be happy.

I really wish that you will love me more.

The more i tell myself to stop thinking, the more i miss you.

The more i wanna hate you, i love you even more.

I'm so sick of you, yet i love you too much to let go.

baby, i really miss you.

Worn out.

Trust is the main factor to make things right.
But somehow it seems so hard to.
I'm forcing myself, believing every words you said.
I'm tired, energy is running out.

I really wish to spend more time with you.
Yet I'm doubting you feel the same way too.
You rather do your own things without me.
I'm never included.

Can I hold on to you forever?
Do I even have the strength to carry on much longer?
I'm just a normal any other girl.
Tender loving care is needed in me too.

I want you to care, I want you to be here.
I want your texts, I want your calls.
I want your time, I want your presence.
But I know it's hard for you to give.

I shall not be demanding, I shall just bear with it.
I shall not pester you, I shall wait for you.
I shall not annoy you, I shall remain my silence.
I shall not tie you with my demands, I shall be there for you.

As much as I wanna show you, I love you baby.
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