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i am having mixed emotional today.
serious, damn it.

happy that i got to shoot and learnt something
kinda sad when i heard something that's not really positive.
guilty cause i didn't accompany my friend when i asked her out and abit left out.
disappointed and still waiting for an asshole jerk to talk to me.

i don't know what's wrong with me.
i told myself not to think about it anymore.
you're just looking down at me and i should be used to it.

where's the long hours of chat?
where's those crappy nights?
whatever, it's all over.
back to basic.