keep it left, keep it right.

if you know, if you know.

i love my friends, they are my loves.

be it new or old, fat or thin.

:)

my one crazy girl, jasmine chye.

she's random and i can talk almost anything to her.

once i meet her, i can't stop talking to her.

i'm glad i went that night.

:D

Jac Jere Flora Felicia.

school's life is completely different with them around.

yes, i bet we're really noisy in the class.

but, who cares? i love it.

girls, please let me concentrate in class.

2 more months to exams.

i must start studying and pay attention.

HAHAHA!

it's beginning of the new sem!

BITCH!

anyway, i'm looking for my lover.

i don't exactly have her photo.

but i've got a rough sketch on how she look like.

please help me keep a look out of her.

she's one person that stole my whole heart away.

i miss her badly.

if found, please contact me.

bloodylife.jacqualine@hotmail.com

thanks a million.

:D

just then, feeling ever so lousy.

dearest o9o6o9,

today i feel really lousy.

i'm upset and it makes me feel really terrible of myself.

yes, maybe i'm not a good friend.

i'm really trying so hard and yet, i failed so terribly.

i'm not a good friend, i never know how.

people treat me just like a pillar.

ignoring the presence when not needed.

but yet lean on it when feeling tired.

i don't mind this fact, cause i know i'm in some help.

but it does hurt me sometimes when ignoring get overloaded.

it makes me feel that, my presences is just so insignificant.

my opinion, my views, everything about me, is just override.

i'm not important, it's okay.

i don't matter, it's okay.

i don't have a stand, never mind.

give me a breather, some respect.

maybe that's all i need.

when you all just decide, and making it final without even asking me.

that's what made me upset.

i made my views, all so not important.

other people views, hell yes and agreement.

how do you feel if you're in my shoes?

great? happy? joyful?

i doubt so.

sometimes i feel like a fool for being a friend.

in friends, you don't need consideration.

you don't have to consider whether to continue the friendship or what.

it seems so sick and make me feel really retarded.

once a friend, is always a friend, this is my statement.

even if now you hate me, dislike me, drifted away,

but one day if you need help, i'm oh-so-willing to help you out.

this is me.

i'm going really easy on everything.

i don't wanna voice some stuff out,

cause i don't want everything to turn so ugly or anything.

i just want it to drift away.

leave me out, i keep my silence.

making joke out of me, i'll laugh with you.

shout at me, i'm all ears to it.

ignoring me, i'll just forget it.

i'm easily affected,

that's all.

Signing off,

Jacqualine

limit hit, bam it goes.

I realized something about me.

yes, i really hate this.

i show my temper easily.

sorry those who suffered under my temper explosion.

really do hope that, injuries suffered is not deadly.

i'm really sorry, i hate myself for it.

it's part of me, i did try to change and chase it away.

but it just stay and remain.

i even feel like getting a tattoo for it just to remind myself.

guess one day, everybody will just leave me.

reason is simply my temper.

i really don't want it to happen.

yet i can't remove it from my blood.

i'm paranoid.

this is really bad.

you didn't realise, it's you that made me go on.

have you ever gotten betray by someone you really cherish most?

okay, let's not say cherish, maybe just someone you really trust and feel close with.

nope, i'm not saying about anyone.

it's just a very random thought while playing my solitaire.

well, i believe most of the people have already experience this.

but maybe, you just move on leaving pieces lying there.

that's what i did last time, and bear grudges on that person.

telling people how much you have being hurt and wanting people to sympathy with you.

don't you realise this is just a very simple and common mistake?

yes, maybe your friends be on your side.

and you will call them your true friends, but what happen if they do the same thing to you?

you can never predict what will happen next.

you will quarrel with friends, step onto conflicts danger zone and they might just betray you in the moment of heat.

what will you do then? repeat the whole thing over and over again?

why don't just learn from mistake and do not repeat it in future again?

just like, forgive and forget.

yes, words are easier to be said than done.

but it will really make lives easier for everybody, especially for yourself.

i'm practicing this habit now.

i just feel that why should we make everything so ugly when you can actually mend it beautifully?

okay, i don't really know how to phrase it, but i just wanna share my thinking.

betray is something bad, leaving scars.

you can use some form of concealers to conceal, but once you remove it, it's still there.

maybe you can feed the scar vitamins e and it will lighten and fade.

which will you prefer? a short term concealing or long term treatment.

but i know, you will say both as both can work at the same time.

whatever, i don't know what i'm talking.

i type what's in my mind.

G'nights

when images became blur, the more is missed.


PHOTO ONLY!

"what's up dude? why you want me that way?"
that's just a random phrase that came into my mind.
it's not specifically for anyone.

had a great time yesterday.
yes i really did, thanks dude.
another of my wants is fulfilled.
addiction is just another thing.

the thoughts i had, leaving it unsaid.
no words to put in place, just a blank look.
a look in the eyes, isn't just something extraordinary
none have to say, use those imagination.

off to study for my last paper.
DATE ME OUT SOON!
:)