MYSELF, happy birthday.

well, i'm finally in me 20.

yes, i no longer 1x.

getting old really fast.

well, i wouldn't say i'm really disappointed with my birthday,

least, i do have friends, Kimberly and clique, and my beloved Serene to celebrate it with me.

i can really tell who's really there for me and who's not.

yes, i'm really disappointed with friends who i thought was closest to my heart.

i really doubt they actually remember my birthday.

why, cause, i've disable my facebook birthday notification.

and true enough, not much people actually wish me.

heartless or forgetful?

i don't really wanna comment on it.

neither do i wanna judge anyone.

i'll just let it pass keeping everything in my heart.

i do seriously hope this year will be better.

thanks Serene for always being there.

though you have school early in the morning, at 8am, you still make the effort to be there.

and yes, you bear with the killer heels pain.

oh, and the almost-caused-me-dead super flaming lambo.

so much loved, seriously.

thanks Peijun, darling, for delivering my present to my doorstep though i'm not home.

it did surprised me, and i feel touch.

i actually thought you did forget about my birthday.

but, love you for this small little surprise.

promise, i'll buy you another ring. :)

thanks Kimberly for partying with me tonight.

accompanied me throughout, especially those heated up experiences.

thanks for forgoing your studies for a night just to party with me.

sorry that i must have bored you with my smoking breaks.

but you're so much loved.

well, pretty pathetic when i sincerely have this few to thank.

but i really do appreciate it, from the bottom of my heart.

anyway, thanks for the wishes people.

simple words make one feels better.

loves to those whom i know now.

A Relieve of Heart.

it's so nice to have someone really there to listen.

someone who really understand.

she knows everything.

though, we don't really meet that often.

maybe once or twice a month.

but she knows everything, and not forgetting much about it.

i know i can always tell her everything, she don't judge me.

thanks for being there.

i start to daze off every now and then.

drifting into the thoughts of losing.

it's an unknowingly thing.

i can feel my heart aching every now and then.

reasons unclear, yet it seems like my mind knows it all without my acknowledging it.

it seems like i'm separated in within.

moodless and numb,

there's nothing much more to say.

i'm tired.

when things were so sweet..

dearest Darling, PeiJun, was such a sweetie today.

delivered her notes to me just for me to study.

it's like, she still have not end her exams yet.

yea, she woke up early and sent the notes to my door.

how sweet.

i miss her so freaking much. :(

i've got so much to type, but yet i've forgotten about what i wanna blog.

did lots of thinking yesterday, wasn't really happy.

i seem to miss out so much stuff, and obviously, i miss my whole bunch of friends.

it's like, everybody is so busy with their stuff and exams.

really hard for us to plan a meet up.

i don't even know their schedule.

please date me out after my papers which like ending on the 4th of sept.

i don't care who you are, just date me out.

cause, no matter what, you're so being missed by me!

no pointing of fingers, i know you miss me too.

don't tell me you don't.. :(

please stop, never great.

just now was great, cept my 2 songs were missing.

yes, today wasn't like any other night.

maybe i've not gone for a normal night for long.

but today my dressing was totally different as well.

me love it many.

maybe, cause of my cough and drowsiness, i'm not that great clubbing mood.

fuck, and thanks to some messages, making it worst.

but oh well, i've got great company with me.

it cures all bad stuff.

thanks Karmen for dancing with me.

sorry that i neglecting you and leaving you in darkness.

i'll remind myself more often, sorry for being such a bitch.

me LOVE you!

thanks Sebby as well.

though it's random, but you came.

and it's like you hate dance floor, yet you were on it.

nice bo?!

okay, i think i've got lots of great people around me actually.

yes, baddies, fuck off and fuck yourself hard.

don't screw me up for some nonsensical stuff.

i don't deserve it.

lots of love,

G'nights.

when it bring thing close to unexpected tears.


met up with Pei Jun just now.
that one moment of stare and shockness,
then with a oh-so-natural hug.
at that moment, so many things run through my mind.
that's when i almost let those unknown tears roll of the brim of my eyes.

i believe, she felt the same too.

thanks darling.

"what's up dude? why you want me that way?"
that's just a random phrase that came into my mind.
it's not specifically for anyone.

had a great time yesterday.
yes i really did, thanks dude.
another of my wants is fulfilled.
addiction is just another thing.

the thoughts i had, leaving it unsaid.
no words to put in place, just a blank look.
a look in the eyes, isn't just something extraordinary
none have to say, use those imagination.

off to study for my last paper.
DATE ME OUT SOON!
:)

i'm feeling thankful today.
thanks for the support people.
you all are simply great.

sorry to those who wanna come and support me.
but yet i'v already close and left.
it's moral support that i need.
i'm touched.

but to those, who just wanna give money and thinking i need THOSE MONEY,
please wake up with your senses.
i'm not a begger.
you've disappoint me with this thinking.
i can afford to make loses.