just then, feeling ever so lousy.

dearest o9o6o9,

today i feel really lousy.

i'm upset and it makes me feel really terrible of myself.

yes, maybe i'm not a good friend.

i'm really trying so hard and yet, i failed so terribly.

i'm not a good friend, i never know how.

people treat me just like a pillar.

ignoring the presence when not needed.

but yet lean on it when feeling tired.

i don't mind this fact, cause i know i'm in some help.

but it does hurt me sometimes when ignoring get overloaded.

it makes me feel that, my presences is just so insignificant.

my opinion, my views, everything about me, is just override.

i'm not important, it's okay.

i don't matter, it's okay.

i don't have a stand, never mind.

give me a breather, some respect.

maybe that's all i need.

when you all just decide, and making it final without even asking me.

that's what made me upset.

i made my views, all so not important.

other people views, hell yes and agreement.

how do you feel if you're in my shoes?

great? happy? joyful?

i doubt so.

sometimes i feel like a fool for being a friend.

in friends, you don't need consideration.

you don't have to consider whether to continue the friendship or what.

it seems so sick and make me feel really retarded.

once a friend, is always a friend, this is my statement.

even if now you hate me, dislike me, drifted away,

but one day if you need help, i'm oh-so-willing to help you out.

this is me.

i'm going really easy on everything.

i don't wanna voice some stuff out,

cause i don't want everything to turn so ugly or anything.

i just want it to drift away.

leave me out, i keep my silence.

making joke out of me, i'll laugh with you.

shout at me, i'm all ears to it.

ignoring me, i'll just forget it.

i'm easily affected,

that's all.

Signing off,

Jacqualine

that change, is just minor.

okay! so now is about my hair.

before i show you my permed hair, i shall show you a photo of my straight hair.

:)

actually now i start to miss my straight hair.

but i'm happy with my hair now too.

that day before i step into the salon, i'm like super nervous and scare.

nervous about the end result and scare that i might not look good.

but, everything was really quite fine.

:)

this is the 3 colorful stuff that are mainly used on my hair.

it did amazed me, it's like, how on earth can it make my hair till some curly stuff?

that 3 type of cones and rubber bands.

HAHA! i couldn't stop laughing at myself when i see this.

it's like lawyer's wig like.

it's not heavy or pain, but just funny.

so are you ready for the end result.

but the photo showed will be after about 3 wash.

i couldn't stand of not washing for a day.

so, yea.

i know i really look much older, but this photo my hair is still a little wet.

and i really don't know how to style it.

if you know me well, you will know i don't spend time styling my hair.

i'm not good at it.

guess from this 2 photos my hair looks better right? :D

yea, the curls are much softer now.

and i really like it. :)

money flies away, troubles set in.

oh my, i've seriously overspent this week!

guess i spent around 200 over nothing.

100 on hair, 50 plus on cab, 50 plus out with friends.

NOT PRODUCTIVE!

okay, i set my heart.

i shall not take cab anymore!

it's really expensive and i'll still be late.

maybe i should make a habit to prepare earlier and leave early.

oh, and guess what!

today, i worn heels out to the street.

and thanks to my stubbornness, i came home with my feet sore and full of blisters.

HAHA, I'M LIKE LAUGHING AT MYSELF NOW!

worst of all,

a blister burst, and it's at the sole of the feet.

i'm limping my way now.

sucks sucks!

and FINALLY!

i've permed my hair.

my mummy said it's ugly and don't suit me.

whereas my friends said it's not bad cept for ONE person.

i'm sad by the respond.

but, I'M STILL HAPPY WITH MY CHANGE! :D

photos will be up soon, i hope.

maybe monday? :D

G'nights.

limit hit, bam it goes.

I realized something about me.

yes, i really hate this.

i show my temper easily.

sorry those who suffered under my temper explosion.

really do hope that, injuries suffered is not deadly.

i'm really sorry, i hate myself for it.

it's part of me, i did try to change and chase it away.

but it just stay and remain.

i even feel like getting a tattoo for it just to remind myself.

guess one day, everybody will just leave me.

reason is simply my temper.

i really don't want it to happen.

yet i can't remove it from my blood.

i'm paranoid.

this is really bad.

let your hair down now, it's party time!

yes, LONG WAITED MOMENT!

it's holiday!

i've got so many stuff on my what-to-do-list!

but i know, it's really impossible for me to fulfill all.

one by one, i'll take my time.

but i've got 3 most important task.

paint my room, change my image and ENJOYMENT BABY!

:D

kbox and out with my PIEs tomorrow.

clubbing night on wed?

anymore?!

pathetic.

m

PEOPLE, DATE ME OUT!