Family.

awoke, screamed and cried.

awoke by the screaming and noises outside my room.

screamed in agony and hoping for help.

cried in despair and throbbing pain.

"why am i born into this family living in this kind of drama?"

can never learn how to bear with all these drama.

it's a scene that nobody will wanna be.

i hate it, i hate my family, i hate being helpless.

nobody will understand.

everything is nearing, light seem to be lost.

shadow casted, tears are flowing.

screaming helplessly, silence are heard.

nightmare formed, haunting forever.

i don't wish to be here anymore.

take me away.

11.12, the crying morning

11 December 2008, even before it was, this night or early morning, is a crying night for me.
i'm scare.

a weird message:

"know being a gal like you online is quite tiring because guys will juz flood ur mailbox non-stop..BUT.. i reali do hope tat u can open a new chapter in my life so tat when history comes, i will have a bookmark in my book of life indicating this special day of knowing u..so,will you be starting this beautiful story??after so many years then we manage to know each other's existance. life is like a puzzle n u may be tat missing piece who can make my life complete..let me know u more if u r willing..or perhaps,we may become gd frenz who knows right?i'll be waiting..Ace here..msn-e.c.l.i.p. s.e_81@hotmail.com 8*******"

sorry, but i'm a girl who seem to be healing her heart.

i don't wanna be that missing piece in your life.

get lost.

well, have added a new beautiful melody to my blog.

it brought me tears and some painful memories.
making me regretting more.
but i won't regret who i've loved.

there's no doubt that i make silly mistake.
but what done is done.
i either choose to regret or treat it as a lesson.
maybe, i should not regret.

i feel like tearing now.
i miss the old me, i miss my friends, i miss him.
i miss those times when everything was in place.
now everything seem to be falling apart.
yet i can't do anything.
i'm plain useless.

g, you know how i feel.
yet you can't forget the past.
it's time to move on.
i'll wait.