enough, stop saying me.

don't tell me anything.

i don't need explanation or anything.

if you think it is, then it is.

you don't understand.

excuses, i had enough of it.

everything seem the same.

just like how it was that time.

don't tell me i'm nice or anything.

i don't take that, you don't know anything.

stop pushing blames and fault on me.

i need a breather, life's becoming really hectic for me.

seriously i don't know what to do now.

not that i don't wanna attend, it's just that my emotions are in a mess.

i don't know how to face it.

and you just say it right into me.

you making me worst.

you didn't even ask what's wrong.

you just accused me like this.

you don't know how it feels when tears just roll down like that.

it sucks to have this kind of life.

when everything is seriously an act.

nobody understand.

when you accelerate too fast, it crashed.

when you decelerate, you feel stupid.

when you go a normal speed, everything just goes bumpy.

TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS!

i don't care anymore.

i feel like an idiot at this very moment.

why i didn't die in place of my grandmother?

just stab me hard.

when one is pathetic, nothing seem beautiful.

yes, call me pathetic.

nobody really bother about me.

in another word, my existence don't really matter.

whatever is it, yes you hurt me.

i thought you and i were really close.

but actual fact, it seem to be just a pathetic act.

i would wait for you till your a levels end.

i understand how stress you will be.

i didn't really wanna bother you as well.

but now, you show me that, i'm no importance.

if you change your number, you could just tell me.

if you don't have my number, you can check it out from others or just ask me online.

and hell yes, you didn't even inform me.

you can chat with everbody, go out with everybody, cept for me.

you don't know how it feels.

i tried really hard to at least date you out for a dinner date.

just a 5 mins will be great.

but you just gave me tons of rejections or ignores.

i'm really disappointed in you.

you don't know how much our friendship means to me.

i don't know what it means to you, but enough.

you did everything that were so wrong.

gracie, i'm disappointed with you, thoroughly.

enough of it already.

we're strangers.

11.12, the crying morning

11 December 2008, even before it was, this night or early morning, is a crying night for me.
i'm scare.

a weird message:

"know being a gal like you online is quite tiring because guys will juz flood ur mailbox non-stop..BUT.. i reali do hope tat u can open a new chapter in my life so tat when history comes, i will have a bookmark in my book of life indicating this special day of knowing u..so,will you be starting this beautiful story??after so many years then we manage to know each other's existance. life is like a puzzle n u may be tat missing piece who can make my life complete..let me know u more if u r willing..or perhaps,we may become gd frenz who knows right?i'll be waiting..Ace here..msn-e.c.l.i.p. s.e_81@hotmail.com 8*******"

sorry, but i'm a girl who seem to be healing her heart.

i don't wanna be that missing piece in your life.

get lost.