when one is pathetic, nothing seem beautiful.

yes, call me pathetic.

nobody really bother about me.

in another word, my existence don't really matter.

whatever is it, yes you hurt me.

i thought you and i were really close.

but actual fact, it seem to be just a pathetic act.

i would wait for you till your a levels end.

i understand how stress you will be.

i didn't really wanna bother you as well.

but now, you show me that, i'm no importance.

if you change your number, you could just tell me.

if you don't have my number, you can check it out from others or just ask me online.

and hell yes, you didn't even inform me.

you can chat with everbody, go out with everybody, cept for me.

you don't know how it feels.

i tried really hard to at least date you out for a dinner date.

just a 5 mins will be great.

but you just gave me tons of rejections or ignores.

i'm really disappointed in you.

you don't know how much our friendship means to me.

i don't know what it means to you, but enough.

you did everything that were so wrong.

gracie, i'm disappointed with you, thoroughly.

enough of it already.

we're strangers.

14April2009



met up with Shuxian to hunt for my birthday present.
but before that, we had to satisfy our growling stomach.
super hungry i tell you!

Shuxian brought me to this cafe at far east level 4, Sakura.
well, it's not bad but a little pricy for the items in the menu.
but overall, we did have a super full meal.

Mee goreng

Thai Style Balachan Kangkong
(but it's only sambal kangkong.:S)

Pandan leaves wrapped chicken

Shu Xian and Jacq

after that went to find my present.
but unfortunately for them, it's a foundation and not compact powder.
so did not get it.

went back to my house to change and slack.
gosh, guess till now i still can't survive wearing heels.
and i just bought another new pair of heels.
dammit.

once home, change out of my outfit to something more cooling.
shuxian had her long wanted root beer, and orange juice for me.
settle down in my room and started taking photo.
but, all are quite cmi.
LOL.

This picture, somehow really freak me out.
My Balloon!

headed out and went all around.
bishan, city link and marina square.
then after that went to gracie's school to give her a surprise.
being a lousy boyfriend of hers, i bought her 3 stalk of purple roses.
representing : "iloveyou, you are my romance"

waited anxiously outside her school.
running and walking around.
thinking of her reaction.

went target is spotted, we hid in a behind the gate.
when she was at the gate, i jumped out and booo her.
she screamed and started shouting and tearing.
not tears of joy, obviously.

but, tears of don't-know-what.
she was actually complaining to her friends that she still have to travel down to find us at city hall.
this girl ar, aiyo!

headed to Jurong Point and dined at Bakerzin.
the set dinner wasn't great.
and guess what, we bought lots desserts.
nice, and overly-sweet.

yes, it's toooo swwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet till i gotta order Earl Grey to neutralize the sweetness a little.
and even that, my tea tasted sweet too.
just imagine it.




it's a short night, but it was great.
gracie, meet up again after my exams!

Just as it seems like i am, but yet, i'm not

met up with Girlfriend, Gracie, today.
but no, no suntanning, no surprise.
cause me, the nanny, gotta wait for ayden to come.
so can't go suntanning or make breakfast for her.

well, bought ayden around with me today.
in stranger's eyes, i'm a underage mummy.
weird stares, gossip, are around.
singaporean? maybe.

had my brunch at hongkong cafe @ PS.
actually didn't wanted to go there, but a saw a familar face.
SEBASTIAN THAT FACE! LOL!
so there i go, thinking and hoping to eat that mango ice for desert.
Gracie and I had a tough time deciding on what to order.
Both, was like whack the heart area when deciding. :X

and that guy, YA THAT GUY, said i act dao again.
actually i just wanted to see whether he recongize me.
so, i'm not dao okay, just that i like to be funny.

when ayden is asleep, the waitress said he was cute.
when ayden is awake, everybody starting to play with him and carry him around.
friendly people, and they too thought i'm the mother of the baby.
and HIM, asked me whether is it mine, so i told him YES, HIS MY BABY!
I CAUGHT HIM THIS TIME!
:D

1st shot : I look scared and forced

2nd shot : Much better. :S

I asked Gracie to cut the bread for me cause she said she will.
but when the food came, she said :"God give you a mouth to bite, why cut?"
so i told her, "okay lo, you bite, don't cut, then cut for me only lo."
and that poor girl........

BITE!

CUT FOR JACQ!! :D
PS: SHE WAS SUPER UNWILLING AND COMPLAINING!

AND AND AND!!!
i've thought of what to wear for the Nuffnang's Christmas Party on the 20th December!
at first Darling and i decided on theme : Princess.
but after eating and went to shop around.
step into Cotton Body, DING!
PYJAMAS IT SHALL BE!
so i grab an oversize shirt and excitedly rush to Fitting room to give it a try!
BANG, PERFECT!
grab bedroom slippers to go with it as well.

TODAY SPENDING FOR TODAY: APPROXIMATELY 100. :S

*WARNING*
Please ignore my retarded face, ugly fringe, fat thights, and blur photos.
photos are taken with that lousy webcam that i've bought months ago. :S


argh, i can't decide on what to wear now!
should i wear princess, which is just a dress and heels,
or should i wear my pyjamas, which is that shirt and comfy bedroom slipper?
:S

the not-so-Princess

OR

Comfy Pyjamas

one more day to decide on what to wear.
shall discuss with darling tomorrow again.
but seem like both of us will prefer pyjamas.
cause, WE HATE HEELS!
:D

okay, leave it for tomorrow.
i shall turn in early cause i'm going shopping with darling tomorrow!
and it will be a long day for me.
wish that i won't be dead on saturday!
:D

CHANGE TO PYJAMAS AND SLEEP!

G'nights.

this is when i want myself back.

i'm losing it.

my lovely girlfriend, Gracie, gave me a shock more than a surprise yesterday.

a sudden call asking me where am i and ordered me to go to the bus stop IMMEDIATELY.

rushed down and was in a total mess.

met her, it was really long since i saw her, she have slimmed down. :)

full-O-sweetness.

have been unwell and weak for the past few days causing me to be unable to turn up for my exams.
how weak can i be now.
lucky gotten mc to cover me.

everything went great last week.
or at least, most of the time.
i met up with who i want to meet up with.
except, my dearest peijun. :(

didn't wanna turn up for class.
cause i felt that, i shouldn't have.
i'm just a pretty much of a stranger.
left alone, not know much of a shit.
how sad.

time alone was not really spent yet.
maybe this week, i'll take time off from everything.
i'm rather tired.

with KAREN

with GRACIE

i feel happy with just a little chat with you.
over the moon when i meet you.
what we did add spices to it.
do you know?
i'll wait.

i won't ask for much.
just a little meet up will do.
not much time is left.
i'm getting worried.

i'm down, cause you are.
you don't share, i don't know.
i asked, no words are said.
you miss her, i teared.
but what else more i can do?
i'm here, you ignored.

you know i love you, don't you?

HAHAH! i'm retarded!
ugly retarded bitch!