With a tag : Stress.

yes, it's studying period.

exams on friday and saturday.

i really hate it, but i don't seem to have a choice either.

i don't get it, why is it so sufferable.

in additional, i'm not feeling well and having some emotional lockdown.

i was having blackout and almost fainted just now went i'm out.

it's no joke, i couldn't see properly for 10 mins.

i'm scare.

problems, please leave me for good.

why do you all seem to be so stuck with me?

don't you know i'm really avoiding you all?

shooo shooo get away from me.

this is when i can tell i miss you.

Aching to the heart.

poor little baby girl,

down with a fever this afternoon.

though it have subsides,

it still bring pain to see her in a grumpy mood.

puking, no appetite and grouchiness.

she's in bed now.

be well tomorrow!

library time.

i don't, not a need.

congrats me, i'm sick again.

down with flu, phlegm stuff and cough.

feeling so uncomfortable.

please please, don't give me fever.

i wanna enjoy my holiday for now.

:(

when one fall sick, it sucks.

gosh, have being really nauseous today.

best thing is today morning event.

was taking bus to school, then halfway there, i started to feel so nauseous that i know i couldn't continue the ride any long.

alighted at bishan and rush to the toliet.

gastric juice and yesterday's breakfast(didn't have any appetite the whole day after that.)

then my stomach, too, played tricks on me.

so come diarrhea, and so damn unlucky, aunt came too.

so i was like stuck in the toilet for whole 15mins.

perspiring like madness till my hair was wet too.

quite shock when i look into the mirror.

pale.

yes, i'm still puking up till now.

whole day already, the nauseousness is killing me big time.

hope i'll feel better tomorrow.

anyway, guess today out of 4 cab trips, 2 cab trips almost killed me.

but, i'll only tell you why tomorrow.

i'm feeling so shag now.

red light blinking, batt left 1%.

G'nights all!

PS : Very POP today is fun with the gaga-madness people. they're friendly. YES I GOT NEW FRIENDSS!!!!!!! :D update tomorrow too! :D

fading off effect.



As promised, my fringe.

okay i don't think you can see much.
but i just feel like posting that picture.
okay, another picture taken on that day itself.

don't ask me why i look so pale in that photo.
guess the answer is obvious.
i have no makeup on and i'm like super sick and tired that day.
and i was like super drowsy after the medication.

almost fell asleep during the hair cut.
have to struggle to keep myself awake.
gosh, it's terrible to feel drowsy.

yea, anyway, i'm sorry that i've not being updating.
my internet down, laptop dying, being falling sick again and etc.
getting busier each day, exams coming too.
gotta start studying, i wanna do well man.


out of boredom one day, i drew something.
something that i think it is, but my friends think otherwise.
do you wanna see that something?
maybe you can tell me what it is.

it's just a lion. :S
say i'm talented!

importances is not me, hatred loves me.


finally went to a doctor today.
things doesn't seem to be too good.
doctor said i might have bronchitis for now.
and if it still doesn't recover or become worst, i've gotta go for an xray.
yes, again.

i was even give the medication spray that asthma victims use.
just in case, i got too breathless.
i'm told to take it everywhere with me.

please, get well soon.

In it, or isn't?


Still, coughing like a dragon, sneeze like an elephant.
Pondering whether should i visit the doctor.
It have been almost a month.
It's killing me by disturbing my needed sleep.

Have been working this couple of days.
and i'm now blogging in the office.

it's funny as you see the stack of company's clients information stacking up my table.
but i quite like this job, you don't have to use brains.
just type, click and select.
though, this is a really boring job.

till then.

[PS : Chinese dictionary shall be my new best friend for my duration in work. HA!]

be glad that you are not my neighbour.
if not, you will be terrified by an elephant sneezing and dragon coughing.
HAHAHAHA!

i'm still feeling as sick.
damn.

too much of a good thing, coming to an end.






i've slept through the day.
still feeling really uncomfortable.
cough cough sneeze sneeze.

thanks nicholas for the job.
tomorrow am reporting for work at 8.45.
hopefully i'll leave home earlier and find my way.
it's a alienated place for me.
i've never being there.

finally i will have some income for myself.
:)

sleepless night with it bugging me.







i'm feeling so unwell.
i've being wearing mask for yesterday.
i don't want to spread my sickness around.
it's cough virus and flu bug.

save me, i'm feeling terrible.
not much of a proper sleep.
sucks.



[PS: i'm wearing green contact lens, and i love it.]


ah.... ah.... ah-chooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

dreams that filled with you, is it good or bad?


twilight down, new mood next.
i'm just so in love.
okay, guess i'm lagging but no blames alright?
mountain turtle, what you expect?

yesterday night i was clumsy.
i pulled my stucked belt too hard and it shoot right into my lower lips.
i don't know how it happened, it's a flash.
pain and numb, bleeding next.
sucks.

i suspect i'll die one night due to coughing.
i'm coughing like a coughing machine.
cough for hours non-stop.
irritating!

it's an insane, mistaken.


HAHA!
i'm back home from the club.
but yet i'm not tired at all.

in the beginning, my stomach and body played some tricks with me.
to begin with, i was super hungry after the getting the chop from phuture.
so, i ate a double cheese burger after cabbing over to Liang Court.
aftermath, club hopping around Clark Quay and have 2 glasses of Lychee Martini.
shortly, i began to feel nausea and coughing like a dog.
and every single thing came out.
leaving me blood shot yet spotty red all over me.

seriously, i was totally freak out okay.
well, but guess i puked is just because i was super hungry with already plenty of gastric juice in my stomach.
then after eating my burger, not long after, i drink 2 Lychee Martini straight.
acid + acid = indigestion = expel all out.

anyanyway!
phuture and zouk are killers today.
okay, not much of zouk but when i was there, it's like jam packed with people in the dance floor.
it's like only around 12 am.
then when i go over to phuture, it's the same.
what the fuck.

but i did have fun today.
it's really funny to see how guys wanted to grind girls so much.
seriously, is their kukujiao really so itchy?
HAHAHAHA!

OH YA!
today i must be BLIND and UNLUCKY!
shall not explain it here.
interested, you can ask.
if not, just think that i'm just so unlucky.


PLEASE TELL ME WHY AM I SO UGLY FGLY!

just one moment like the past..

HELLO!
how's Lunar New Year for you?
Great?

well, for me, angbao is pathetic, skip it.
but seem like i'm having some luck in gambling.
by just playing cards, i've been winning about 50 plus?
alright, not alot but least, it adds to my income.
i just love playing cards during this festive.

went to relative's place.
it's a tradition type of things that can't be skipped.
yes, i hate it.
it's like whatever for?

it's like just to show face.
but whatever, at lease i get to spend some times with my family and babies.
it's well spent at least.

anyway i realised i got a super duper cute cousin.
and he's seriously handsome.
i crave for him, but he just a tad too young.
a gap of 16 years?
his name is JACKSON!

yes, shout cute, you have to admit.
he's damn shy in the beginning.
so i tried my luck and "seduce" him.
and of course, i won!

it's just some simple tricks and already have him keep looking for me.
heard from my mother that he keep looking for me when i not around.
isn't he sweet?



awww.. while typing this.
i miss Jackson, his smile just melt me down.

anyway, on the 2nd day of new year,
my both sister came back.
yea, they are married, so i couldn't see them everyday.
i do miss them.
it's like though years have past, but i still can't get used to it without them everyday.

but guess, i miss their cutie pies more.
:D

Eldest sis with Ayden.

and guess what, Ayden and Mischa worn couple wear that day.
both are in jump suit, it's like funny.
and yes, they were like perspiring throughout the day.
poor babies, they can't do anything.

i quite like this shot. :D

Mischa took my eldest bro-in-law sunglasses and started playing with it.
and so, we it on her.
she likes it and started posing with it.

after all the visiting, it's dinner and my favourite, GAMBLING TIME!
played and gamble and won myself around 50 bucks.
but too bad it ended early, cause mahjong session is up next.
and i sucks in it.
so off to get my beauty sleep!

oh ya!
somehow, maybe it's just a stage for the babies.
that Mischa and Ayden just like to stick out their tongues.
i got my evidence with me.

Ayden the Yoga Master!

Mischa the Laundry

At the 4th day of new year, i've got rashes appearing all over me.
i've got freak out by it since it's my first time getting it.
so it's was like, disgusting!

went to the doctor and he said i maybe allergic to the flu medicine i taken the night before.
yes, it's not my medicine, it's my sister.
having really bad flu and block nose that night and pop it in.
and TADAH! rashes!

NEVER TAKE MEDICINE THAT DON'T BELONGS TO YOU!

another 2 months more to my birthday!
am quite excited about though it still have quite a long way to go.
my birthday is never a happening stuff, plain, boring and lousy.
how sad right, fuck.

i've been having terrible birthday celebration ever since i step into secondary.
i seriously wish that this year will be a great one.
but, well, forget it.
pin no hopes.

BUT BUT BUT!
call me kiasu, i've already gotten my 1st birthday present for myself!
yes, i do get myself presents every year.
cause, i guess, it's just a way to spoil myself.

last year presents were spa and tongue piercing.
and this year is...............

yes, from Swarovski.
can you see what it is?
Clearer? Blame it on the plastic cover.
Saw?
Better?
It's a Swarovski Little Snow Flake.

well, it's not a expensive stuff.
but it do have some meaning behind this little thing.
nothing special, but have you ever really seen a snow flake before?
maybe you did, but definitely not me.

i always see in those cartoons, pictures, etc.
and the image of a perfect snow flake begin to surface.
yes, it's a Crystal Snow Flake.
one that really shine and sparkle under the rays of the sun without melting.

so, when i passby Swarovski during Christmas.
this Little Snow Flake caught my attention and i was stuck to it.
i was a little shock that the naive me thought there's really Snow Flake in that cabinet.

but it wasn't, so i've been think about this Little Snow Flake after i left.
it's the perfect snow flake that i've always being thinking of.
and i know, i have to get it.

so TADAH!
i bought it for myself as a birthday present.
simple yet meaningful somehow.
thanks.

G'nights.

it left a shadow in me that i couldn't possibly remove.


i'm sick again, bad cramps and aches.
fever, flu, sore throat, cough and eye irritation.
they are all back again, YES AGAIN!
i'm irritated and it's like wtf.
i can't take it, i just wish that i'll be dead soon.

anyway, went to bugis street for my long waited shopping trip.
madness, not alot of stuff bought, but is the amount and time used.
within a short 1 hour, i bought 2 dresses, 4 tops and 1 short.

okay la, i know there's people can buy more than me.
but, it's like, i haven't been shopping for a long long while.
it's really satisfying and i felt better.

total damage is only about 120.
call it cheap, isn't it?
moreover, it's not me the one paying.
double duper yea-ness!

but one disappointment is that,
bugis junction did not have anything that i fancy.
but oh well, i'm still satisfied.
guess i need one more pair of sandels-kind-of-shoe and a bag to complete the list.

anyway, the starhub out amk hub is really ridiculous.
i wanted to buy c905 from Starhub but they do not have stock.
so when i tried my luck by asking this shop stuff.

he asked whether i want contract or not?
when i tell him yes, he said he don't have any c905.
then i asked, then if i don't want contract will have?
then he said yes.

wtf wtf wtf, does it make any difference?
are you trying to earn commission or what?
the god damn phone is still starhub phone right?!

i'm super pissed upon hearing that and i just wtf and left the shop.
i was cursing and swearing that guy, seriously.
just see how pissed i am.

well, guess my that 100 bucks voucher can't be used.
it's damn wasted, i'm pissed.

diarrhoea falls on me.
damn it, i hate it!
i wanna go school la!
BITCH!

somehow, i really do.

知道 by 郭靜

她讓你憔悴許多　她讓你不知所措
她一舉一動你不停地對我說
我微笑傾聽你說　我卻越聽越心痛
怎麼你說的不是我她比我多了甚麼　讓你願意　耐心等候我想知道她讓你癡心　是甚麼
我想知道她讓你瘋狂　為甚麼
我知道做的和她沒有不同
但是我　卻不在你心中　逗留我想知道她哪裡比我好更多
在你心中她和我有甚麼不同
我知道我比她付出的還多
可是我　總換不了你的　心動你讓我憔悴很多　你讓我不知所措
你一舉一動我的心被牽著走
她不經意地走過　你就把我給冷落
嫉妒把我給吞沒她比我多了甚麼　讓你願意　耐心等候我想知道她讓你癡心　是甚麼
我想知道她讓你瘋狂　為甚麼
我知道做的和她沒有不同
但是我　卻不在你心中　逗留我想知道她哪裡比我好更多
在你心中她和我有甚麼不同
我知道我比她付出的還多
可是我　總換不了你的　心動我知道了她哪裡比我好更多
在你心中我永遠不可能會讓你心動
我知道我比她付出的還多
可是我　在你心中沒有她多

i'm not chinese song listener, just happened to came by tis song

this song, somehow describe everything.

it's a good song filled with meanings.

argh, i'm feeling really weak now.

have been puking and puking.

i even had diarrohea.

sucks.

doubt i can turn up for lessons again.

what's happening to my body!?

dear body, please recover real soon.
you're killing me.

so practically, ever since don't know when,
i'm like sick till now, it have being the longest period.
i've never been like that before.

coughing, sneezing, restless, dazed.
and my school reopen present is, 2 days mc.
thanks ar, just as much as i wanted to go school.
this sucks.

going to the doctor again, my throat hurts, nose is block.
fuck.

number 200 : no, i still can't get it over.


should i get.....

Samsung pixon

OR

Sony Ericsson C905?

YEA! I'VE GOTTEN MY DSLR!
AM SNAPPING AROUND LIKE MADDNESS!
I LOVE IT!

i'm meeting sushan in another 9 hours time for suntanning.
i'm meeting gracie tomorrow for suntanning.
2 days of suntanning. madness?
but guess i'm gonna spam sunblock on myself.
someone ever told me not to get tan.

today went for dowsing lesson.
Dowsing : to search for underground supplies of water, metal, etc., by the use of a divining rod.
actually it's suppose to be dowsed to change the energy in or around oneself.
aiya, don't know how to explain, but it suppose to be a good stuff.
it's abit stupid, and it cause 40 bucks just for the approximately 3 hours lesson.

argh! off to sleep.before i oversleep tomorrow again.

PS: nose bleeding, sneezing and coughing for the past 2 days. SICK!

this is when i want myself back.

i'm losing it.

my lovely girlfriend, Gracie, gave me a shock more than a surprise yesterday.

a sudden call asking me where am i and ordered me to go to the bus stop IMMEDIATELY.

rushed down and was in a total mess.

met her, it was really long since i saw her, she have slimmed down. :)

full-O-sweetness.

have been unwell and weak for the past few days causing me to be unable to turn up for my exams.
how weak can i be now.
lucky gotten mc to cover me.

argh, my head hurt when i stand from sitting.
seriously it's like spinning and squeezing pain.
sucks..

can i have a wheelchair?
so i don't have to stand up.
you don't know how much it hurts.
:(