Neglected.

my health, my family, my friends.

i believe that i've neglected them totally cause of my selfish wish.

yes, that's to earn money for my birthday.

it's only a about 2 more weeks away.

i've been so busy and tired till i barely even have the time to type over here.

and i believe, my total funds now is barely even 500.

can any kind soul just give me some amount?

just a dollar, i'll appreciate it.

lots of alcohol in my body now.

thanks to my job.

no, i don't get drunk.

but my body seem to be getting weaker.

i couldn't get enough sleep.

i can't sleep well, nightmares.

they can't seem to stop bothering me.

someone, somebody, please put me to sleep.

i do wonder, if my choice is right.

but since it's made, i can't do much about it.

regrets, not my type.

i've gotta live with it well.

make me grow up, i need to be stronger.

i don't have anybody with me.

all my friends, they seem to be not around.

my family, speechless.

i don't have a boyfriend, i can't be bother.

i don't believe in love, i can't.

i don't wanna be fooled over and over again.

it's pathetic.

love me, don't you?

never.

fading off effect.



As promised, my fringe.

okay i don't think you can see much.
but i just feel like posting that picture.
okay, another picture taken on that day itself.

don't ask me why i look so pale in that photo.
guess the answer is obvious.
i have no makeup on and i'm like super sick and tired that day.
and i was like super drowsy after the medication.

almost fell asleep during the hair cut.
have to struggle to keep myself awake.
gosh, it's terrible to feel drowsy.

yea, anyway, i'm sorry that i've not being updating.
my internet down, laptop dying, being falling sick again and etc.
getting busier each day, exams coming too.
gotta start studying, i wanna do well man.


out of boredom one day, i drew something.
something that i think it is, but my friends think otherwise.
do you wanna see that something?
maybe you can tell me what it is.

it's just a lion. :S
say i'm talented!