Numb.

work, sleep, work, sleep.

it seem like this is my routine for recent days.

ask me if i'm sick of it, yes i am.

i wanna meet my friends and enjoy the night together.

for a movie, crazy session, or whatever.

yesterday i totally shut myself down during work.

ignoring what's happening around me.

stare into space, sink into the beats.

i felt so tired and alone.

when people ask me where am i heading or doing, 1 word reply, work.

they must be getting sick of it, i know.

as much as i want to join them, i couldn't.

i missed all the fun and hanging out.

friends, bear with me.

Loves.

OKAY! I'VE DECIDED!

TOMORROW I'LL HEAD DOWN TO ZOUK ALONE!

YES ALL ALONE, I SHALL NOT ASK PEOPLE TO GO WITH ME ANYMORE.

IT MAKES ME FEEL FUCKING DESPO.

JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT'S THE RELUCTANCE FOR?!

IT'S FREE TICKET THAT I FUCKING WON.

WHY IS EVERYBODY SO FUCKING BUSY?

SO AM I, BUT I'LL STILL GO.

IT'S MY PRIZE.

I'LL GIVE THE SPARE TICKET TO SOMEONE WHO NEED IT.

AT LEAST THEY APPRECIATE IT MORE.

I'LL GO THERE AND MEET NEW FRIENDS.

YES, I'VE SO LIMITED FRIENDS NOW.

A PAIR OF HANDS ALSO CAN COUNT IT ALL.

DUNK.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW!

today is a pretty boring and alone day for me.
not, i don't feel lonely.
in fact, i had all those peaceful thoughts.

i watched movie alone today, again.

He's just not that into you.
it's a nice show, no doubts.
though i don't understand the beginning, but the ending was all happy.

yes, i almost cried somehow.
it's not exactly related to me, but, i don't know.
i'm really emotion these few days.
guess i need a good cry.

it's a cold day, a not that perfect day.
i miss all the people that used to be around me.
but they seem to be all gone, disappear.

people, are you here?
you know i'm refering to you right?

everything went great last week.
or at least, most of the time.
i met up with who i want to meet up with.
except, my dearest peijun. :(

didn't wanna turn up for class.
cause i felt that, i shouldn't have.
i'm just a pretty much of a stranger.
left alone, not know much of a shit.
how sad.

time alone was not really spent yet.
maybe this week, i'll take time off from everything.
i'm rather tired.

with KAREN

with GRACIE

i feel happy with just a little chat with you.
over the moon when i meet you.
what we did add spices to it.
do you know?
i'll wait.

i won't ask for much.
just a little meet up will do.
not much time is left.
i'm getting worried.

i'm down, cause you are.
you don't share, i don't know.
i asked, no words are said.
you miss her, i teared.
but what else more i can do?
i'm here, you ignored.

you know i love you, don't you?

HAHAH! i'm retarded!
ugly retarded bitch!