Breaking in Fear.

frequent nightmares, broke up in sweat.

continuously haunting me, making me fear.

unable to move on, unable to let go.

i can't handle myself anymore.

you're so dear to me, yet there's too much common.

i'm afraid, imperfection.

a wrong word, a wrong act

misunderstanding might just occur.

tell me what to do, tell me how.

maybe i should just stop, no wrong should go further.

a stop to all these, not to cheapen myself further either.

nothing should proceed further than norm.

a lesson to be learnt, yet i didn't.

an err to prevent, yet its repeating.

a threat that wasn't necessary, yet thanks to foolishness.

constantly making sin, i'm a sinner.

tell me what should be done?

Family.

awoke, screamed and cried.

awoke by the screaming and noises outside my room.

screamed in agony and hoping for help.

cried in despair and throbbing pain.

"why am i born into this family living in this kind of drama?"

can never learn how to bear with all these drama.

it's a scene that nobody will wanna be.

i hate it, i hate my family, i hate being helpless.

nobody will understand.

everything is nearing, light seem to be lost.

shadow casted, tears are flowing.

screaming helplessly, silence are heard.

nightmare formed, haunting forever.

i don't wish to be here anymore.

take me away.

A Toy, I'm Not.

don't tell me you did not send those messages.

don't blame it on anybody else.

i don't know what you're up to, but i'm not a toy.

not a toy that when you wanna play, you play.

if not, you just chuck it aside and kick it with all force.

i'm really tired of all these.

moreover, you're nothing to me.

perhaps, just a friend.

what you left with me is nightmare of the only night.

i tried to forget and still treated you as my friend.

guess i'm too silly, cause i'm just a dirt.

i hate it.

please be gone and not haunt me like that.

i don't need you, or anyone like you.