give me a breather.
don't let me worry anymore.
grow up.

you're a friend of mine whom i don't tell my problems to yet feel closest with.
why i won't wanna tell you my problems?
ask yourself, how many times have you leak it out to people who i don't feel close with?
how many times have you make me felt betray?
you're not even here for me.
other people are more important at me.
words don't mean anything, action explain all that i need to know.

you're the one that i worried most.
yet, you don't even know.
i've explained enough on what's more important.
but yet, you're giving it up yourself everytime.
i tried hard to pull you back and break your fall.
yet, what i did is good for nothing.

i'm tired, yet you don't care.
you want everything to go in your ways.
is that what friends are for?

i'm writting all these cause i feel that i shouldn't hide anymore.
everything might turn ugly after this.
but i really need to let you know.

first or the first?

this is when i realise,
there isn't anyone for me.

scroll down my phone list,
somehow, all of them seem to be strangers to me.
tears filled my eyes, yet i couldn't let it drop.

i thought it wouldn't affect me that hard.
i didn't want to know the fact, yet i know the fact long ago.
i want to run away from it, yet everything happen just so yesterday.
or is it this early morning?
it crash on me hard.

time is really running out.

I WANNA GO DRINKING!
WILL SOMEONE FUCKING GO WITH ME?!

anyway, i'm addicted to something.
i shouldn't name it.

i feel old to do alot of things.
arrgh.
i'm only 18 for goodness sake.
chhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee byyyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeee!

this is when i know that they are all just selfish people.

they who don't bother about whether you don't know.
just satisfy themselve, leaving you begging for help.
yet they just don't give you a damn and change the topic.

thanks for teaching me this instead.

"what's up dude? why you want me that way?"
that's just a random phrase that came into my mind.
it's not specifically for anyone.

had a great time yesterday.
yes i really did, thanks dude.
another of my wants is fulfilled.
addiction is just another thing.

the thoughts i had, leaving it unsaid.
no words to put in place, just a blank look.
a look in the eyes, isn't just something extraordinary
none have to say, use those imagination.

off to study for my last paper.
DATE ME OUT SOON!
:)