Silence.




There's not a need for word.

or even a sound.

turn me deaf in the emptiness i felt.

soundless memories being played,

staring aimlessly at the screen.

never ending, not a change.

bring me away,

write me a new chapter.

give me the sound that i long to hear.

return hopes into me.

where are you, past tense?

Trap in Agony.

why do i keep reminiscing the past?

flashback and memories.

how do i clear them away and live afresh?

it's haunting me, badly.

i tried really hard not to think about it anymore.

but, i'll just wonder off slowly and back to that spot.

i should have moved on, i thought i did.

yet, recent happenings, brought them all back to me at one go.

stop it, i shouted at myself.

forget about it, it's already the past.

you're stronger now, you know it well.

but no, i just hid everything in the deepest corner.

not removed.

pretendence seem to be my forte now.

nobody ever know, nobody ever see.

every single soul, thought i'm just fine on my own.

no, i'm not alright, i'm not okay, i'm not fine.

i'm just another girl.

when it will be put into waste..

the past is the past, yet i'm still holding like it's the future.

what the hell am i doing, i don't understand about me, especially this thought.

reminiscing about it is such a torture, and i bring it upon myself.

am i really that sadistic?

forget it.

anyway, anybody want tickets for friday Very Pop @ zouk?

i won it from 987 Goes Gaga.

well, exams period and i'm stuck with studying.

but well, i don't know if i can give people like this.

gosh, later i'm blacklisted in 987.

maybe i'll pop by.

2 hours only, 10-12.

should be no harm right?

somemore next day is english.

advise me man, but nobody is free to go with me.

projects, exams, school, work.

MAYBE I SHOULD GO ALONE!

least, that's what i've being wanting to do.

GO TO THE CLUB ALONE.

always see it on tv, i wanna try it too.

guess it's like fucking cool.

:D

spent a total of 4 hours on this new skin.
searching, selecting, filtering, designing, editing and finalizing.
i pretty like it, simple.

haven't been feeling really great this whole fucking week.
it seems like, i'm falling into depression real soon, anytime.
i don't know what's wrong with me, but something is certainly not right.
it's really complicated with all the complications around.
sucks absolutely.

i miss those silly past.
indulge in some reminiscing, causes silly smiles and tears.
is it a good or a bad thing?