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it have been really tiring for me.

tears were bound to drop yet hanging it those eyes.
feeling really down, yet i've got nobody to turn to.
scroll down that list, yet i seem to know nobody.

i told myself to be strong, yet i'm such a weakling.
i still thinking about it, i can't accept.
i know it all along, but the fact in words pierce even deeper.
tell me what can i do to change and amend?
it sucks to be me when i'm losing myself ever so slowly.

everything seem to be changing but not me.
give me those drinks and make me drunk.
numb me for a moment, and let it be long.
let me drop and fall, to the endless pit.
let me cry, with those endless flow.
call me up, and tell me that i'll be fine.
it's gonna be a lie, yet, i don't know how can feel better.

slap me awake, i beg and pray.
time is running out, yet nothing much can be done.
what i what, is not what it will be.
all have a choice, yet i give in to any choices that were made.
i've lost myself ever since.
i can't find it back anymore.

i'm tired, tell me what should i do?