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sometimes, i just don't wish to explain to much.
some don't bother, so what for i explain so much and end up no words is taken in?
know me well, and you will know why.
i thought everything was clear.
i'm wrong.

i'm sick and tired, yet i saw that sentence which bring me to feel that i'm just an extra.
do you even know how that feel?
it's horrible, it's hurting.
i'm quite looking forward to it, but just that sentence, it make me feel that i shouldn't turn up to spoil anything.
thanks for looking me at this way.

i thought you're someone i can talk and understand me.
you seemed to have changed just in that period of time.
i'm really looking forward in meeting you, i long for the meeting.
but now, i feel betray and feel that what i felt seem stupid.

i told you how i felt about how i felt, yet you don't understand and yet seem to blame.
you don't even reply somehow.
is it that redundant to tell you how i felt?
i thought i could tell you anything, but what you do is seem like you shove me away.
okay, maybe you are busy.
but maybe 5 mins is all i need, is it too much to ask for?

no matter how tired i am, how busy i am, i do put you first.
i'm not praising myself or what, but you know your placing.
what's mine, guess i'm just down those list now.
i don't feel like saying much anymore.
i don't want those silly tears.

thanks.