In your eyes..

i'm all to blame.

i think too much.

i'm just too free.

i'm just a passerby.

you never know,

i'm a girl that i need you to be here.

i'm a girl that have been trying really hard to grab your attention.

i'm a girl who willing to go all out for you.

but you just ignored everything about me,

and just focus so much on yourself.

what am i really to you?

i'm beginning to feel lost.

reading the messages you used to send me.

all seem to be so different with the happenings.

you making me feel so depressed.

all i long for is you to at least drop me a text.

everything that have to be related to you,

seem so far away and impossible.

don't you know, do you know?

all i wanted, all that you're giving.

you making me to have so much doubts.

how do you want me to trust you and hold on.

i'm losing my grip slowly.

yet i believe, you will never care.

i feel like a fool.

I'm imperfect.

I'm all to blame.
Making you feeling so stressed and troubled.
I'm sorry, I don't know how to be right.
Maybe ending will means perfection.

No, I don't wanna let you go.
But, it will be more perfect that way.
I don't deny my feelings is there.
Yet, I couldn't bear to give you anymore pain.

I'll rather suffer in silence than to bring you pain.
I'm not good enough for you.
I'm not even close to perfection.
But I just want you near me so badly.

What else can I do?
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I'm imperfect.

I'm all to blame.
Making you feeling so stressed and troubled.
I'm sorry, I don't know how to be right.
Maybe ending will means perfection.

No, I don't wanna let you go.
But, it will be more perfect that way.
I don't deny my feelings is there.
Yet, I couldn't bear to give you anymore pain.

I'll rather suffer in silence than to bring you pain.
I'm not good enough for you.
I'm not even close to perfection.
But I just want you near me so badly.

What else can I do?
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Heavy hearted.

Waking up today seem to be another mistake.
Quarrels, shouting and crying filled the house.
I felt the weight in my heart the I can't stand.
I already feel torture enough, please stop.

I feel like messaging someone at that very moment.
But I could not find words to say.
I don't seem to be able express myself.
I'm scare, really scare.

Family should just stop waking me up in this manner.
Why does it seem to be so hard and tough?
I always wish that my family will have no drama.
It's really depressing to be me.

I can't hold longer.
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Courage.

The will to live,
The strength to face,
The brave to go through,
It's all about courage.

I've lost every bit of it.
I can't bring myself to face, to live, to go through any bits.
Everything will just end up in lies.
I'm not up for it.

Not much to begin with,
Too much to end with.
I'm a pathetic loser I admit.
Ending up in tears.

How to find courage?
I will never know.
Given up, everything is pointless.
Stone away.

I'm really tired.
No longer who I am.
Getting worst,
Getting too lost.

Courage, where are you?
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