The more i tell myself to stop thinking, the more i miss you.

The more i wanna hate you, i love you even more.

I'm so sick of you, yet i love you too much to let go.

baby, i really miss you.

Worn out.

Trust is the main factor to make things right.
But somehow it seems so hard to.
I'm forcing myself, believing every words you said.
I'm tired, energy is running out.

I really wish to spend more time with you.
Yet I'm doubting you feel the same way too.
You rather do your own things without me.
I'm never included.

Can I hold on to you forever?
Do I even have the strength to carry on much longer?
I'm just a normal any other girl.
Tender loving care is needed in me too.

I want you to care, I want you to be here.
I want your texts, I want your calls.
I want your time, I want your presence.
But I know it's hard for you to give.

I shall not be demanding, I shall just bear with it.
I shall not pester you, I shall wait for you.
I shall not annoy you, I shall remain my silence.
I shall not tie you with my demands, I shall be there for you.

As much as I wanna show you, I love you baby.
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In your eyes..

i'm all to blame.

i think too much.

i'm just too free.

i'm just a passerby.

you never know,

i'm a girl that i need you to be here.

i'm a girl that have been trying really hard to grab your attention.

i'm a girl who willing to go all out for you.

but you just ignored everything about me,

and just focus so much on yourself.

what am i really to you?

i'm beginning to feel lost.

reading the messages you used to send me.

all seem to be so different with the happenings.

you making me feel so depressed.

all i long for is you to at least drop me a text.

everything that have to be related to you,

seem so far away and impossible.

don't you know, do you know?

all i wanted, all that you're giving.

you making me to have so much doubts.

how do you want me to trust you and hold on.

i'm losing my grip slowly.

yet i believe, you will never care.

i feel like a fool.

I'm imperfect.

I'm all to blame.
Making you feeling so stressed and troubled.
I'm sorry, I don't know how to be right.
Maybe ending will means perfection.

No, I don't wanna let you go.
But, it will be more perfect that way.
I don't deny my feelings is there.
Yet, I couldn't bear to give you anymore pain.

I'll rather suffer in silence than to bring you pain.
I'm not good enough for you.
I'm not even close to perfection.
But I just want you near me so badly.

What else can I do?
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I'm imperfect.

I'm all to blame.
Making you feeling so stressed and troubled.
I'm sorry, I don't know how to be right.
Maybe ending will means perfection.

No, I don't wanna let you go.
But, it will be more perfect that way.
I don't deny my feelings is there.
Yet, I couldn't bear to give you anymore pain.

I'll rather suffer in silence than to bring you pain.
I'm not good enough for you.
I'm not even close to perfection.
But I just want you near me so badly.

What else can I do?
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