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i've got such a strong urge on not turning up for school.
i don't know how to face the fact.
i'm a drag to the group.
i'm a fucking slacker who drag the group almost all they way down.

realising what the role i'm playing now, is not a good thing at all.
they don't know what i'm thinking.
i can't open up or speak.
i feel lost and mute.
being left-out is something that i should have be numb to by now.
but the feeling is just so ain't great.
alot of things seem to be just the surface.
deep within, nobody truly knows.