this is when i realised, i'm not a good friend.
i'm sorry

after come unknowing reflection.
tell me, am i a good person or a bad person?
guess, i'm ain't great afterall.
worst than i thought i am.


i'm exhausted extremely.
like a vehicle which have drive through a thousand miles without stopping.
i need rest, plenty off it.

i don't want to be a friend like me.
i feel like a fool.
i've thought too much and ended up waiting in vain.

tell me not to cry, cause it doesn't worth.
blame it all me, that's what was thought, for being a fool.

i swear, i'll never be like this again.
i've spending my life waiting for almost everything.
i'm worn and torn.

i'm not in mood.
maybe is just those cold breeze that make it worst.
i'm sick.

what's my value in those eyes?
not 10 cent or even 5 cent.
that's what i am.
enough

what a realisation today.
there's actually several kinds of people in my school.

1. dont' bother dressing just wear normal home clothes ( smart asses! they don't need appearance)
2. tried very hard to make the efford to dress, yet, still look like wearing home clothes. ( it's either they REALLY trying to be good looking when they are already smart enough, or they just can't make it in dressing sense. )
3. dress casually, those kind of "girl-next-door" look ( they are simple people who feel good about what they are wearing. it's just a day in school, or maybe heading out. it's perfectly suited for poly/uni life)
4. dress till as if they are going for some fasion show or treating school as a shopping mall. (well normally this group of people really bother the way how people look at them, appearance is important! well good efford for that, but, maybe, it's just the wrong location for that. :S)

well, these are the 4 main ones that i can remember for now.
i did have alot when i'm walking from the bus stop to my block.
but, i just forget things easily.
ain't my fault, blame it on my pea brain.

well, if you were to ask me which section do i belong to, i'd say that most of the times is 3.
UNLESS, i wake up super early or have an super important date after that.
if not, it's impossible for me to be like 4.
and most of all, i'm way too lazy to dress up JUST TO GO SCHOOL.

met up with Darling, PeiJun, and Hwee Khim today.
it's just like those times in secondary school.
hanging out together after school and having small chats.
but this time round, we are planning our future.
like what we are going to do next meet up, what are we going to do after poly grad, etc.
it's really nice and simple.

darling and i MAYBE heading overseas to study uni if we could not get into any local uni.
we will try to go to the same course for local uni.
HOPEFULLY WE CAN BE CLASSMATES AGAIN!
:D

Who says baby don't enjoy TV?

The sexy hottie.

pooled and lost to that Eric, tyco king.
7-5.

punishment : treat him supper.

ordered a bottle of beer and drink.
that idiot wanted another bottle after finishing.
so, another bottle was serve.
we ended up playing "guess punch"
at first, i lost badly and finished my glass of beer.
but guess, that glass of beer bring me luck.
end up, eric keep losing.

opened the chivas after finishing the beer.
and he drank glass of it, i drank only a couple of slips.
poor eric, how unlucky.
someone is almost drunk!
HAHAHA!

ERIC SUCKS!
still wanna challenge me, we shall see!