i'm soooooo sure that my eyes is connected to my nose, and my nose is connected to my mouth.
have been tasting the awfully bitter taste.
where did it come from? my eye drop medication.
it's like soooooo ewww.
i don't like the taste.
well, i've no choice anyway cause, it's for the good of my eyes!

planning to go for lomotion outing.
very tempted to go, BUT, i'm so shy to go.
well, i'm scare that i'll be all alone and strangly following.
it's like, i don't know anybody there and i'm not familar with everything.
my shots are disappointing and disgusting.
should i or shouldn't i?

my mind ran wild today.
running through all the old dusty memories of mine in my mind.
it's like, " awwww, i soooo miss the past. "
yup, if you do know me real well, you should know that i hate my present life now.
isn't a tiny weeny bit of greatness at all.
its so different compared to last time, back to the olden days.
i know i'm not that old, but reminiscing the past is such a sad thing to do.
well, at least for me.

now my brain seem to be polluted by all the harmful doing of mine.
drinking, smoking a couple of sticks, sleeping, and being mean at times.
no, this isn't what i want.
what i want is just being a happy bitch that won't do things that might/will harm my body.
maybe, i'm just using them as injection for numbness of everything.
i'm not living in the brighter part anymore.
but, I'LL TRY TO BRING MYSELF BACK!
need not worry, just encouragement.
:)

had a night chat over the phone with Gerald last night.
and it lasted almost 3 hours.
it's the longest phone chat i had with guys so far.
yea, not even Naszreen's, my ex, phone chat could end that long.
no, i don't miss him at all, just recalling.
neither am i comparing, cause there's nothing much for me to compare.

well, the phone chat was really crappy.
almost make me laugh and roll off my bed.
he's the guy who can make me laugh throughout.
when i'm sad, he could just use a min to make me laugh like insane.
he's a great friend i must say.
a one who know how i felt and click with in almost every moment.
well, i'd treasure this lil friendship of ours.
i'm not gonna make it turn sour like how others did.
:B

went around again to have experimental sex with my white holga.
Venue : Raffles Area, CBD area and railway station.
yup, i finished my that one roll of flim and took for scanning.
seriously hope everything will turn out nice.
i don't wanna be disappointed though i know i will.
really wonder how will those photo look like.

today was fun with Shu Xian around.
i must say something, that is, whenever she is around, i can't stop laughing.
she's like my laughing tablet.
did alot of silly acts together and gave out crazy laughter.
it's like we got lost together, jailwalking in front of the court, crossing a U-shape traffic and etc.
have to much to describe and spell.

all i have to say, i'm really thankful to have a great friend like her.
though she is not interested in photography/lomoraphy and i did bored her like peanuts, but she did not even complain a single thing.
i've got her go home late and left her going home herself, but she still give me a sweet smile.
that's what i really like about her.
if i were to ask the others, they would have probably kill me and chop me into pieces.

actually wanted to go home with her since we can take the same bus.
but, last minute eric and nic asked me for a movie at PS.
temptation got over me, hence, poor Shu Xian gotta go home herself.
i'm such a bad bad bad girl.

didn't go for movie in the end, went for a pool session instead.
eric is a lucky kid today who keep owning every round.
and a realised something bad, which i think i should not say over here.
but perhaps, there will be hints.

had plans for tomorrow and wed with eric and nic.
tomorrow will be catching movie.
wed will be shooting and drinking day.

smoke a puff today, and i seriously feel like smoking everything.
but, i've got to control myself.
i don't wanna be a bad girl, but the temptation is getting pretty strong.
pull me away from it.

till then, :B.

PHOTOS

FINALLY!
i took my white baby for some sex today!
venue : All the terminals @ Changi Airport
yea, it's a lousy venue i know.
and it's like raining whole day.
how can i bring my new baby out for some rain tanning?!
it's a soooo NONO!

anyway, took 10 over shots.
tried my fisheye lens, double exposure, triple exposure, ground shots, etc.
still don't know the results, film have not finished yet.
2nd round of sex with white baby tomorrow.
hopefully i can finish the film and try c.process it.
and HOPEFULLY, it will turn out nice.

anyway i've done about 9 pages of my NAFA project.
how satisfying it can be.
though i still have 5 more pages, but i can't complete it.
cause, i have not take photos with it yet.
pray that i can take some perfect photo for my project tomorrow.
if not, i'll be dead soooooooooooooon!

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaataaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Yesterday

baby, Karen, came to my house in the morning.
went to meet darling, Pei Jun, for breakfast.
3 of us went to nafa in skimpy dressing.
fbt, short, anyhow top and slippers.
went there just to get my thumbdrive.
attract a lil attraction.
well, i don't see any wrong.

went to bugis to walk around.
darling got present for her boyfriend for 2nd month.

back at home, slacked around with baby.
taught her how to draw eyeliner with my minium knowledge.
her eyelids are indeed weird and hard.
she helped my pluck my eyebrown.
slack online and make a theme for her.

went out to meet keagan at night.
and headed to get my white baby, holga.
it's like a finally. simply in love with it.
THANKS KHLOE FOR THE HOLGA AND EVERYTHING!
THANKS BIG BIGGER BIGGEST TIME!
:D

skip skip skip.

watched 2 movie at PS in the end.
Meet the Spartans and The Leap Years.
it's like one after another.
one meaningful thing is I got to Watch The Leap Year at the leap day.
actually almost didn't get to do that, but i insisted.
it's a nice movie which almost brought me to tears.
:B

anyway the date ended badly.
shan't elaborate on it.

chatted with gerald on the phone which is great.
he's a crapper who will never fail to make me laugh.
nice guy with a same fate as me.
wasted.

Today

woke up at 3.15 with a swollen eyes.
it's really bad and painful.
wondering whether is it because of my new contect lens.
so did my sister and brother-in-law suspect.
but to save my contact lens, i lied.
how bad am i.

went to doctor to seek some treatment and dignose with lotion and flu pills.
my eyes and flu is much better now.
the females in the LAI family are failling sick.
how sad.

mummy is down with flu, cough and fever.
big sister is down with rashes due to pregnancy.
second sister is down with fever.
and i'm down with swollen eye and flu.

anyway, didn't go out to test out my holga today.
i'm seriously sad and disappointed.
i waited this day yet i'm sick and overly tired.
shall try to crawl out tomorrow.
:)


if you are not too long, i'll wait for you.